Memories

2007-12-23T19:28:00.000+08:00

im bored. boo.
thisisarandompostonarandomsundayonarandom7.33pminarandomroombyarandomlyboredhuman.
andthispersonisrandomlyprocrastinatingherrandomtaskssherandomlysetforherselfandisrandomlypanicking.
omg this sounds so dumb. forget it.

天外飞仙showing on channel u!and i only discovered that today so i missed out the first episode yesterday D;

ok. some random people reading this are gonna scold me for being weird again.

i dont know who, but im sure people will find me weird for liking this show. coz not many people except for some youtube people who agrees that it's nice likes this show..

2007-12-18T20:33:00.000+08:00

my mood is dampened.

that's the word right. yes i think it can be used to describe rather well.

to think i was feeling rather well before and during nanotech.

事实总是残忍的。

hahhahaha.

i think that laugh is more of 冷笑 then of a really nice good laugh.

ok nevermind.

just want to type this out..

let's just hope tomorrow's cip will be rather fun (:

guides stuffs are always better with good friends around. (:i should just dumbly move on. why couldnt i. hanging on to the past like an idiot. oh my gosh why have i been torturing myself and becoming like this ever since this time of last year.

2007-12-13T17:06:00.000+08:00

6faith'05 chalet

met huishan and michelle at 5.30pm+ on the first day and we headed for compasspoint to meet others.

they were all so late! gahh.

and huishan forgot to bring her wallet and ran back home to retrieve it, leaving her bag with us.

so liza came and liza and michelle began to flip huishan's bag upside down to look for..ahem. ok.

then. huishan was so angry when she knew lah :D

then we reached downtown east at around 7 and waited so long for mr chan zz-ed!

and michelle keep talking on the phone with boyao and she sounds so teh xD

then we went in finally, and we used the free ticket hahaha :D

then they started playing poker cards AGAIN.

6faith chalet is always the weirdest chalet where everyone keep playing poker cards! ahhh!

ok. then we wanted mr chan to treat us dinner since he still owed us the meal, but he didn't want to because there is no full attendance. ZZ.

so well. we went to eat pizza hut de pizzas with michelle treating us and we only had to pay $2 :DD

then the guys ran away halfway and ran to burger king to eat.

then we returned back to the chalet then everyone's playing poker cards?!

then we played stress.

then we wanted to play water bomb but ended up letting xue er take the plastics all way to the arcade and returning to the chalet for nothing :D

arcade was nice lah. (:

but then. the gun game made my eyes hurt like crazy! haha!

then we went back to the chalet and played poker cards again?!?!

omg lah. D:

and then until dno what time when alot of them returned we started talking abt jokes.

and dunno who linked to ghost stories?!?!?!

AHH.

then we turned on the tv and liza said she saw a head beside kelvin..and somewhere beside me too. AHHHHHH.

ok thats the scariest for me can?!?!! T__T

then i ran to sit at huishan there =/.

then when jolie came into the room when we were talking about these stuffs.

we all screamed :D

and michelle grabbed my leg ahhh !

hahahhahaa.

then they kept calling rayner "emo" haha.

so whenever he came in they would say "emo hui lai liao emo hui lai liao"

yah. hahaha :D

but he keep being alone himself the whole chalet mah.

ok. so we talked all the way till 4+ or 5+ and the guys headed for macs to eat breakfast while i tried to catch my sleep but to no avail. haha.

xue er slept (:

then they went home at 6 -.-

and i thought that was funny because they said that their family members haven't wake up yet.

then i wonder how they will intend to sleep outside their house (:

but too bad lah. coz the chalet beds were occupied by us they couldnt sleep :D

then after they went, liza they all started talking about tarot cards T_T

so eerie.

and then jolie's boyfriend keep asking about it non-stop. scary enough le lahh T_T

then i went home at 7am. since i didnt want to have macs for breakfast but wanted to catch some sleep :D

haha (:

this is the shortest chalet ive ever went lah.. but quite cool la.

not sleeping at night and talking about jokes and ghost stories and some weird shows they found nice were fun lah hahahha.

some photos we took with huishan's phone!

suxian being thrown blankets over by us :D

me trying to use huishan's phone to take photo of michelle's shirt that we wanted to pluck the white thing off. (:

ah-ha. and we took photo of it successfully. (:
this is liza! the person who let us get the chalet! thank you! haha!
the luan qi ba zao chalet :D

michelle eating um. i suppose thats the crabsticks kailing kindly brought for us from her secondary class chalet's bbq (:
thats the guys playing..mm. i suppose its poker cards again.
crabsticks (:
mr chan like so cham like that :D he look so bored and sad :D
this photo very obvious right. it's the evidence that lim shi min michelle is sms-ing her tan bo yao.

2007-12-10T21:27:00.000+08:00

疯狂世界(五月天)

如果说了后悔

是不是一切就能倒退

回忆多么美

活着多么狼狈

为什么这个世界

总要叫人尝伤悲

我不能了解

也不想了解

我好想好想飞逃离这个疯狂世界

那么多苦

那么多累

那么多莫名的泪水

我好想好想飞

逃离这个疯狂的世界

如果是你

发现了我

也别将我挽回

(music)

想了你一整夜

再也想不起你的脸

你是一种感觉

写在夏夜晚风里面

青春是挽不回的水

转眼消失在指间

用力的浪费

再用力的后悔

我好想好想飞

逃离这个疯狂世界

那么多苦

那么多累

那么多莫名的泪水

我好想好想飞

逃离这个疯狂的世界

如果是你

发现了我

也别将我挽回

LALALA.~

2007-12-10T21:06:00.001+08:00

i conclude that fish bone items are nice.

nonono don't give me fish bones for my birthday next year T_T

im very bored LALALA.

it's just so nice to 抛开 all the work and just listen to songs.

ahhh. chinese songs are nice (:

ok lah. english ones are nice too.

but my english is way too lousy to understand them rather well. (:

i'm trying hard to practise good english you know.

but based on the way i talk and the leh loh lahs and the vocabulary level of less than a primary 6, i really have no apparent idea how to improve.

i really want to watch 公主小妹 now.

but i am waiting for witch yoohee on channel u so i shall skip it!

oh well. valerie's going holiday soon. no one to crap and scream about witch yoo hee after she's gone already!

i gladly proclaim that witch yoo hee is nice (:

and i suppose i'm gonna miss a*guides friends this holidays.

but yay we are going for cyclinｇ＋ｓｔｅａｍｂｏａｔ　ｓｏｏｎ！(:

but i wonder what's the reason for celebrating christmas, since i don't celebrate it.

but it's ok! since going out with them are always fun (:

i want tuition.

tuition is fun D; but i dont have tuition D; but i wantttt D;

coping myself at home like how christine calls me a "宅女“ is not fun really, except for the fact that songs can accompany me (:

and keeping the laundry before the rain pours and pattles on them.

and some lovely shows (:

and tons of works waiting to be done.

ok, like how i said i'm gonna finish these tasks of cleaning up my room and all that by the first few days of december.

it's just not fun trying to think of how to clear the mess up when you see messy papers flying here and there.

and i always thought that my december holidays are rather free. it didn't appear so...

science specialist（ｎａｎｏｔｅｃｈ　ｏｍｇ~　[: )
cycling+steamboat
6faith chalet
meeting with cass and zhixin tmr
clearing up room＋ｗｒａｐｐｉｎｇ　ｕｐ　ｍｙ　ｂｏｏｋｓ　ａｎｄ　ｗｒｉｔｉｎｇ　ｍｙ　ｂｉｇ　ｎａｍｅ　ｏｎ　ｔｏｐ　ｏｆ　ｉｔ
ＣＩＰ thing at toa payoh cc and talking with ms martha. =O

ok, these take up a lot already lah D;

ok, maybe not a lot, but i would rather spend times sleeping at home.

like how they say, once you're at home, you really are so lazy to move out of the house one lor!

(ok, maybe many would not agree with this)

and i like pasamalam (:

cotton candies are the best (:

not forgetting the takoyakisss：Ｄ

ｏｋ．　ｉｔｓ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｆｏｏｄ　ｉ＇ｍ　ｔａｌｋｉｎｇ　ａｂｏｕｔ．

i'm crapping sia. all crap. BUT ＩＭ BORED ＷＨＡＴ CAN ＹＯＵ EXPECT！

ａｗｈｈ．　ｏｋ．　ｓｈａｌｌ　ｓｔａｒｔ　ｄｏｗｎｌｏａｄｉｎｇ　ｇａｍｅ　ｂｅｆｏｒｅ　ｍｙ　ｃｏｕｓｉｎ　吵　ｎｏｎ－ｓｔｏｐ（：

2007-12-10T13:19:00.000+08:00

LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR:
1. for grades to improve rather than deproving like it always is! GAHH.
2. stop procrastinating my tasks. zzz-ed.
3. watch finish witch yoohee/kanon(oh man im stucked at first episode) and perhaps fang yang de xin xin(since christine wants me to..).
4. (just ignore this =/)
5. (just ignore this =/)

THE PERSON WHO TAGGED YOU IS
tako D:

YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM / HER
~ Pro in gunbound!!!
~ Keeps denying that she's pro in gunbound.
~ Has cool posts on her blog! (ok, i like the banners in front of her post)
~ Met in ZC (Sorry i know this is crap.. ._. Brain not working well today ._.)
~ Funny friend :D

MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE / SHE HAS DONE FOR YOU
i can only remember the funny conversations in gunbound claiming that she is not pro when she is hahahahhahaa. =/

THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE / SHE SAID TO YOU
Saying no..But there is typings..I cant remember much exactly.. X_X (hides) All i can remember is those mass conversation stuffs. =/..

IF HE / SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL
i will.. ehm.. EH no im not yuri lah D:

IF HE / SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE
will be..ehm. but she's not my enemy! shall jump back to this when she is lah ok :D

PASS THE QUIZ TO 10 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:
1. TYJ Yun Jin!
2. Christine!
3. Zhi Xin!
4. Cassandra!
5. Hui Ling!
6. Qian Ci!
7. Hui Shan!
8. Jerrica!
9. Min Ying!
10. Zi Yun!

(hahaha! i suppose this is gonna be weird quiz! since the list is full of girls :D)
WHO IS NO. 7 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
Huishan ; Well. I'm not sure about this, you can ask SJAB peeps, I'm sure they are more sure about this (:

WHO IS NO. 9 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH?
Min Ying ; COUGH. Sorry. that is just a random cough. (Psst, is that considered as a relationship? xD)

IF NO.9 AND NO.1 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING?
Min Ying & Yun Jin ; noooh. they are my good friends. D: and they are both not yuri D: ~~Min Ying already had someone in her mind and Yun Jin said she was talking to her boyfriend in iCamp mahh. D:~~
WHAT ABOUT NO. 1 AND NO. 5?
Yun Jin & Hui Ling ; Well. They aren't yuris either ma..But i don't find the reason they won't get along well together...

WHAT IS NO. 3 STUDYING?
Zhi Xin ; You never knows, she reads way too many books.

WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO. 6?
Qian Ci ; Senior's farewell day bah.. 4th december, which makes it 6 days ago!

DOES NO. 4 WORK?
Cassandra ; Nah. (Psst, why will she need to work?!)

DOES NO. 8 HAS ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL?
Jerrica ; Nope (I wish No. 8 was Zhi Xin, then i would be able to answer this. ><) WILL YOU WOO NO. 8? Jerrica ; Depends lohh :D She's nice muh :D Only problem is that i dont like to be a yuri D:

HOW ABOUT NO. 5?
Hui Ling ; Depends too :D

DOES NO. 2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS?An elder brother?
Christine ; She has a brother...But...Not elder brother lai de mah? or is it younger?! Isn't it younger brother?! or is it just me?! EEEP sorry >.< color="#999999">Zhi Xin ; 2/5~!
#4; Cassandra ; 2/5~!

WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT?
Yun Jin ; ~~Yishun~~ IM SORRY YUNJIN! WOODLANDS! SHE LIVE AT WOODLANDS!

HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2?
Christine ; A*GUIDES! :DD

IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD?
Hui Ling ; I don't really know, you can ask her personally (:

Ok, I'm sorry that my answers don't answer to the questions. My answers are stupid lah (:

2007-12-06T20:24:00.001+08:00

ahh. so long never post already.

ok, not that long, just havent post on the important things.

2/5 CLASS OUTING (: 4th DEC!

we went mrs chua's house there bah..

then..actually i cant think of much to post.

i seriously didnt think there were quite alot people that went..

mm..

and then i bought my angel and mortal gift at the last minute.

minying gave a zoo-animals biscuit one to cassandra.

cant imagine what will happen when zooclub people see it.

minying gave me watch and a kind of thing that my mum say can "避邪"

zhixin said cassandra looked like otani (:

and also, zhixin is selfish (NoT that shes a fishmonger) cause she dont let me sit on the "lifeguard" chair D=

brindha's blisters were scary =/

jerrica sprained her leg before she came so she walked rather slowly.

stephanie was sick.

zhixin and cassandra ostracized me to have their 二人世界.

minying said something sick when cassandra was answering her mum's phone call.

and we went pasir ris park and cassandra's bike's seat could turn.

i turned half a round on that turn turn thing and hit rather hard when i wanted to get down it properly.

and we played swings again (:

swings are nice (:

we accepted the truth that we were deprived of childhood life (at least, for me and cassandra) after we left the playground.

and mrs chua is a good cook (:

and well, i still miss the 2/5 days in the classroom.

for some reasons i don't know, those days seem more memorable than this.

since those days were so funny with the involvement of so many teachers and jokes (:

SENIORS' FAREWELL BOOHOOHOO! 5th dec

seniors' farewell is sadddd D:

but alot of people didnt come lehs..

i miss jiawen D:

she's nice. very nice D:

and she's pretty. very pretty. (:

she gave me a card which i found it nice..very nice..D:

cause it was cute and there was a cute clip and she wrote words there. everyone had different wordings! (:

and they smashed cakes and creams.

and i smash tuna at qian ci :D

the hotdog was nice D:

so was the cake.

HEH. why ami talking about refreshments.

mm. was so guilty for not giving jiawen's gift on time when we were supposed to.

we bought melissa(sp?)'s gift, last minute.. =/

and we bought the jigsaw for sarah but she didn't come

germaine overslept and caused us to be so worried. D:

then she took taxi here haha.

syafiqah and cheryl said that they were sick so they were absent D:

so i was the only sec 2 in our patrol but it's ok (:

jiawen's gift was jigsaw too (: and we wrote message there. it was so funny (:

and we sang the international camp songs to them and they all burst out laughing (:

and we couldnt dance the scottish dance leh D:

and the singing of songs was rather disastrous. hahahahahha.

only the chorus of graduation was ok (:

and the powerpoint slides made by swallow 1st and 2nd were nice man.. D:

omg lahh. make us feel so guilty for not doing much.

i will miss the sec 4s so muchh.

a*guides <33

>
and after that me and samantha went compasspoint and we bought TAKOYAKI and seaweeds fries XD

yummmmmm.

and we saw michelle at work and huishan who looked like younger sister of hui qing (:

and i went to samantha's house to watch goong but her cd was lost so i ended up eating seaweeds fries and takoyaki there before almost falling asleep and returning home (:

2007-12-02T23:09:00.000+08:00

shall post post on international camp.

but there are too much to post -groans-

lets just make a summary =D

my group was silver fishhh! (only 2 of this award in the whole wide world, and olave won one of them! -claps-)

and not that insect-y silver fish.

and not the fish that is silver in colour, though thats how we drew on our flag xD

first day was boring

coz its supposed to be breaking the ice (now where is the ice?!) and yea, my group members are all anderson guides. break what ice =D

germaine, qiaoyin, izzah, naffeeshah, jerrica, yunjin, me! (:

and we SQUEEZED in the tiny little tent which was supposed to be rather big already in comparison with others.

so first day was boring.

second day was cheryl's birthday. haha.

and pioneering and archery quite cool lah.

except that i cant get splashed by water bomb when i want because the weather was too hot.

and when i couldnt hit the archery board thingy just becaues i had not enough strength (it hit the board and fell down. >.<)

and the catapult looks cool (:

next activity was recycling art where we played with strings, and made something like friendship bands.

germaine made a red shell tortoise, which actually bian diao by the time we were on the bus back to amk mrt.

third day was the coolest lah.

went safra and went for those canopy challenge which was SOO scary.

and germaine was scared too.

but shes so nice coz even though shes scared, she accompanied me and climbed up for the first time! =D

yay. (:

and from there, i made a nice friend called brenda. haha. coz we were all scared so we made friends. hahahaha. (:

and she was so called "too short" and thus couldnt move and got stucked in the middle of the thin air with only one tiny plank to carry her weight before she falls.

so i could see that she almost cried bah.

actually the fourth one was the easiest, to think we all thought that it was the hardest.

and bowling.

im a first timer for bowling you know! and im glad i actually won first when i played with YAs and teachers and germaine when i played the second round! -clap-

77 marks, good improvement for the first round, i got 25. haha.

but 3rd round, dont mention it. too lousy too =D

and we bought sweets for silver fish gang =D

me and germaine.

and the shop seem like it wants to qiao zha us because the food are super duper exp.

aiyo.

haha.

and we wanted to play poker cards but grace's was confiscated by mrs ong D=

went for night cycling at night.

fun but well yea. scary and TIRING obviously. haha.

at least, they said its better than night tour where they were FORCED to go shopping and stuff (:

4th day was the craziest! -screams-

morning was sleeping time (: and our sub-camp CCs were nice.

allowed us to sleep more. but yea.

carnival was rather boring. coz i only had 70 cents to buy things and obviously ic ant buy anything except for 50cents gummies.

and we went for rafting and we threw stones

uncle mail was nice. he can make the stone skip 4 times! -fascinated-

and jerrica de mummy and her sis and bro came. D= so good D=

huixin (maam) came too. and then got chocolate eat omg =DD

and then remembered i forgot to reply her sms during HIPS camp =XX

campfire was <3

too bad there isnt any pass it on cheers, but we did our own cheer. yayh. hahaha

and then they so crap lah xD

very high and very fun.

i like our performance as well as other groups de cheers.

haha.

and i <3 scottish dance though i dint dance it D=

and we learnt maldives(is it?) and cambodia dance too =D

and scotland guides gave me keychain!

it was just a way too simple keychain that is not that you ji nian jia zhi because dont have their name/country, and behind the keychain there was a word "fund", but it was cool because the guide dint noe me yet she gave me! yayyyy (:

then we all jumped like CRAZYYYY after that.

cheryl keep laughing at me D=

and i fell down on the floor while laughing =D

and cheryl said it was the first time she see me so crazy =D

so high that tyj and me and jerrica sang in the tent (:

and then slept for the first time, squeezing with 6 other people.

haha. very hard to sleep =D

and reporting time became 8 instead of 7 because we all so high! LOL (:

friday was just norm lor. pack bag then go home.

reminisce/reflections

i was rather evil this camp lah.

for screaming "dont smoke! dont take drugs! dont take knifes!" when people are calling on the phone...=x and they became so disturbed. people namely naffeeshah izzah and yunjin =x

and i felt so useless in the camp cause whenever there were things to help out in i never helped...

and i felt so lousy in the camp coz i hardly made any friends in the camp. coz i dont dare to speak first?

and i missed my home so terribly for the first time. especially my parents.

and i felt so lousy because many times i felt like crying in the camp because i miss my mum =/

and for once i was terrified of food.

actually there are many terrible feelings i had in the tent which i dont know how to explain it out. all i knew was that the feelings were terrible.

but at least the campfire is fun, a.guides cheers are fun. a. guides friends company is <3 (: we spent $200 for bonding sessions. LOL..

and at least, the activities were nice.

and at least, this camp made me realise how bad a person i really am. useless and lousy =D

and at least it made me realise that i dun really miss my computer more than my family..

and at least it made me realise that class outing/seniors farewell(that was soooo delayed =O) is coming up so cheerrrsss =D

and at least i learnt scottish dance and learnt new cheers and learnt new songs (: (though i cant remember the songs already, the campfire had sooo many new ones leh..)

and at least i see a.guides dancing pole dance . LOL.

and at least i solved some questions in my heart.

and at least i realise that i have so much more things to chiong this holiday.

and at least tried out many new things this camp (:

sooo. nevermind. lets be optimistic, this camp isnt that bad. its quite fun (: and at least we learnt many new things (: and the campfire really rawked =)

2007-11-27T23:00:00.000+08:00

Last night before I say goodbye to my computer, my urban life, and get welcomed to the so-a-bit-rural-life in Camp Christine with the other guides in Singapore and from other countries.

It's not really that I'm too excited to sleep, in fact, I'm too mood-less to sleep.

People's moods can really affect me a lot.

I hate it that, although the person's mood have nothing to do with me, yet I still feel those kind of sian mood because the person talked in a sian manner..

So I should never talk to sian people.

I'm considering on a hiatus after the camp.

Have to force myself to read finish chinese history already.

And do all the things I procrastinated to do.

Thousands of them.Hmm.

Maybe I would just come online once a week next month.

I pray that I'm able to do that.

For I'm such a computer addict.

I shall stop myself from being addicted to computer.

HOPEFULLY.

I seriously think I lost my nanotech consent form.

And I'm so dead if I really lost it.

And I'm very sian-ed.

Why doesn't my house contain any sweets or chocolates.

I'm crapping all over. Nevermind. Byebye.

2007-11-27T12:09:00.000+08:00

i shall be good and do cassandra's quiz now (: but i shall quote alot of my answers from cassandra's.. her answers do make a lot of sense. at least, same as what i thought? well yea.

Q: NAME A FREND WHO'S NAMES STARTS WITH A 'S'
A: -flips phonebook contacts- SAMANTHA (: (in fact i have two friends with the name of SAMANTHA =D)

Q: 4TH PERSON ON YOUR MISSED CALLS
A: Samantha from guidees. (:

Q: WHAT DID THE LAST TEXT MESSAGE YOU RECEIVED SAY?
A: Christine saying that she is wearing frog earrings. LOL! -think grace and get the joke-

Q: DO YOU CHEW ON YOUR STRAWS?
A: Always =/

Q: DO YOU HAVE CURLY HAIR?
A: Yes before rebonding..and also yes a few months after rebonding hair. =O

Q: WHAT IS THE NEXT CONCERT YOU'RE GOING TO?
A: None bah. Never go before. AHH. I want to go one D=

Q: WHOS THE COOLEST PERSON IN YOUR LIFE?
A: I never thought of this question before...define coolest clearly...then maybe i can answer in a specific way =D

Q: WHAT WORDS DO YOU SAY ALOT ?
A: i really dont know what words. i crap too much to remember what i always say (:

Q: WHAT IS THE LAST THING YOU ATE?
A: i ate..hmm..oreo waffle stick! last night! my father's birthday cake that looked like candles-the waffle stick! LOL.

Q: WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU SAID TO SOMEONE AND WHO WAS IT?
A: Is sms counted? if it is, i said LOL to christine's reply of her wearing frog earrings (:

Q: DO YOU WATCH TV?
A: Yes duh! TV ish <3 (:

Q: HAVE YOU SEEN THE MOVIE, DONNIEDARKO?
A: -quotes from cassandra- Never even heard of it.

Q: EVER BEEN HUNTING?
A: hunt for what? animals? food? items? presents? Oh, i hunt down for shops before (: ice cream shop (: and i almost went hunting for souvenirs today (:

Q: IS MARRIAGE IN YOUR FUTURE?
A: -quotes from cassandra- Dunno. How would a fourteen year old know! Unless its an arranged marriage in her/his future...

Q: WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAID, ''I LOVE YOU'' AND MEANT IT?
A: Is saying that to people's back view counted? Anyway i cant remember when is the last time i even said that out..=O

Q: WHAT SHOULD YOU BE DOING RIGHT NOW?
A: Reading my chinese history by order of parents?

Q: DO YOU HAVE A NICKNAME?
A: Pathetically yes. -stares at anyone around- and sometimes i even wonder how i could get those weird irrelevant nick names given. =.=

Q: DO YOU BELIEVE IN LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT?
A: -quotes from cassandra- No. Lust at first sight yes.

Q: WHO'S THE YOUNGEST ONE IN THE FAMILY?
A: ME!

Q: IS DRUG FREE THE WAY TO BE?
A: -quotes from cassandra- Hell yes.

Q: DO YOU CLEAN UP NICE?
A: Maybe? if i do slap myself out of laziness and clean up, i suppose so.

Q: LAST TIME YOU USED A SKATEBOARD?
A: i almost got a chance to own a skateboard years ago D= but well, never tried using before..

Q: WHERE WAS THE LAST PLACE YOU SLEPT BESIDE YOUR HOUSE?
A: Is sleeping on the bus counted? =p

Q: EVER RUN OUT OF GAS ON THE ROAD?
A: -quotes from cassandra- No car, no need for gas. If that's the sort of gas you're talking about. I dont have car either.

Q: BEST MOVIE YOU'VE SEEN IN THE PAST TWO WEEKS?
A: never watched movies these 2 weeks. next two weeks or so perhaps (:

Q: WHO DO YOU TRUST THE MOST?
A: -quotes from cassandra's answer- Myself. ME TOO.

Q: DO YOU THINK PEOPLE WHO COME UP WITH BRAIN DEAD QUIZZES ARE CRYING FOR HELP IN SOME TWISTED WAY?
A: -quotes from cassandra's answers because i dont understand =/-Yeah. Interesting way of trying to get attention.

LAST

1) person you saw: My sister!
2) talked to on the phone: My mum (:
3) hugged: i cant remember. pei jun during brownies camp? (:
4) person you texted: christine, thats obvious, since it was my answer for the first few questions.

TODAY

1) date: 27th November 2007
2) plans: MmM. eat lunch and slack and watch some shows and pack back for tomorrow?
3) dislikes about tomorrow: Yeah. Coz im still confused about the activities for tomorrow. Since mrs ong dint decipher it out clearly.

CURRENTLY

1) missing someone: well yes? i'm doing that quite often. D=
2) mood: neutral, but wont be that soon after. this mood never lasts for long.

TRUE OR FALSE

I am a morning person: False! i hate mornings . ZZZ.
I am a perfectionist: I think that's quite true to a certain extent. IF i ever decide to put my heart into what im doing. if not, im not a perfectionist =D
I am an only child: False!~ =D
I am currently in my pajamas: i dont own a pajamas? =O
I am online 24/7: nope, almost 24/7 but nope (:
I am very shy around the oppsite gender: -quotes from cassandra- pretty true.
I can be paranoid: Yes. (:
I currently regret something that I have done: well yes. ive regretted for one entire year already. =/
I enjoy talking on the phone: -quotes from cassandra- Depends on who's on the other end.
I have a lot to learn: of course? like my english is one thing. =O 所谓活到老，学到老！我的只是这么浅薄当然还有很多要学的。。
I have a secret: -quotes from cassandra- who doesn't?

5 person to do this:Im rather lazy to find people to do D= they did the quiz already D= anyone who likes to do this quiz, go ahead (:

2007-11-26T21:10:00.000+08:00

ah the photo is here lols (:

why serene and shannon and rachel look so pissed off. LOL.

i should tell rachel about this photo and see how she react sia..hahahaha..

ok lah cass. i shall do your quiz SOON.

SOOON. hahah!

2007-11-23T11:37:00.000+08:00

i shall procrastinate cassandra's quiz first.

brownies camp is first.

no wait. getting the songs thanks to the webbie given by ayaka is first!

oh yeah man! <3>i miss my whole big bunch of naughty brownies who were so troublesome yet cuteeeehhhh.! xD

21november2007; wednesday; first day of camph.

arrived in sch early early in the morning and set off to HIPS!

sleeping bag super duper BULKY. ZZZh.

then put our bags and met the brownies and played those kind of icebreaker kinda games.

my group was so bored for it that they anyhow played can. -.-

actually i cant remember whats next.

-jumps-

then got lunch and all that.

the brownies have SIX sessions for foodstuffs the whole day!

my gawdh.

and my brownies are so active but so inactive in participating in the activities. anyone got what i meant? xD

cant remember whats on on the first day...

i only remembered them being SO naughty and hit me and then by night time it spreaded to almost all the a.guides around that i got bullied by a brownie - shannon.

zzz. hahah.

then the floor was so HARD i cant sleep.

then we talked and talked.

then i slept when yunjin they all went somewhere.

after that i rolled by accident to yunjin's place and she couldnt sleep. =D

i cant remember much on the first day. . !

-jumps-

and the de-brief is funny.

and we/grace overheard the guiders' talkings so we dint dare to take food the next day.

and the toilet/bathrooms were scary. so dark. and water so cold! D=

oh i remembered! eh. my group girls are naughty D= they ran away during craft time to finish up their group songs.

and they even scolded their own groupmate for spoiling the group song.

which she dint really do that..much..

aw. how can quarrel muh..

22november2007; thursday; second day of camp; psle results out de day

woke early early in the morning by loads of alarm tones.

then went to brush teeth. [i mean, obviously..]

and i knocked down the lock on the door of the cubicle! LOL.

it was loose from the start lah xD

then breakfast..oh my group was on duty. zzz. =D

then we sat there and talk and we went for heritage trail.

me and dimeng decided to sit on the roadside of the mosque there and people were staring at us like we are some liu lang hans.

lols.

then first group came and then after that i went asleep with my songs playing on mp3.

then just as i start to dream i was woken up by izzah+nafeeshah walking/patrolling.

second group got lost. haha.

then had to wait till 10.30 then they came, but before that we went to buy food from seven eleven. <3

and would anyone believe me if i said i eat chocolates till i fall asleep? xD

then we followed 2nd group to lunch. so cool leh. japanese food got tea one =D

then had to rush back because the 3rd group jumped their lunch and went at lunchtime?!

oh man. then we followed them off for their lunch, but we saw 1st group so we just stick to following 1st group because we dont want to spend 2 hours staring at the space because we ate our lunch.

went the church, and sharon gave sweets from peijun!

and some of us bought snacks to have a party at night. [forget it, it dint happen in the end]

and then we saw jingqiu and jiahui! =D

and then uh [stm] i forgot what happened

oh. the activity. they dressed as indian girl, then they bought ice cream, and went to bus.

returned to HIPS, went for small nap

and so crazy the top psle student got 294!

i mean, if you count something like the idiot kind of percentage, she minused 6 marks, then 6/300, so approximately, over 100, she only minused 2 marks??

thats crazy. i mean, that is SOO crazy!

& went to tea, and cultural dance. taught like crazy. they dint want to learn.

then jingqiu talk to them talk talk talk then they finally started to try [some of them initially]

and some dint really look willing, obviously..but nevermind. (:

end up we still put up a LOVELY NICE GREAT FANTASTIC FABULOUS EXCELLENT -WHATEVER NICE WORDS TO PUT HERE- PERFORMANCE! <3>

BIG BIG THANK YOU to JING QIU for teaching them so muchhhh!!!!

<33

and that was only when i realised shannon's leg was swollen like so so so purple-ish and she never tell me?!

no wonder she was walking like weird weird one.

and she still danced with her leg like this.

but why can hit staircase until like that one? =O

aiye. then we went back room after supper and then we rested and ate and tried to find sweets to give the brownies as we promised but there was no sweets to kope from others..

and so me and peijun wrote notes from them from 11+ to 2+ so nice right!

better hope they wont throw it away.

our xin xie!

cheryl fell asleep so couldnt get her to write too =/

[bhb] ours is very nice nice nice ok! [/bhb]

and im pretty bias for the writing things.

some got alot to write some nothing to write =/

then i went to sleep.

so tiring =D

i wondered why the sec 3s could learn physics in the middle of the camp until 3am =O.....

and they said i rolled here and there again =/

and woke up by too-bright-de-lights and by the rest of the people.

zz-ed =D

and then took the cards and walked around here and there.

so the brownies actually saw it lah.

and they so mei liang xin one.

i give them then the next minute all call me fish home.

and we took photos!

[shall upload it on this post when cheryl finishes uploading]

mann.. i miss them.. D=

and shannon dont want to give me her email. ZZZ-ed.

i want lah -.-...

---

i want the camp back =/

i dont like to come back to this life. zzz-ed D:

and i really really miss the crappy, funny, crazy, cute, naughty, (anywordsyouwanttoputin) group of brownies :

shu hui, carisia, yun jing, rachel, joycelina, shannon, alina, leanne, hazirah, wen fang, jin yeng, serene!

-this is not in order of anything (:-

and im so rather glad that they found it fun!

i was so worried they wont find it fun coz they keep saying so lame!

but yes! they found it fun.

ahh. so this camp is so worth it.

i miss you guys luhhh brownieesssssssss (:

no, i shall be biased and say that i miss my buddies groups de browniess only !! <33>

especially for that cultural dance thing which you all spent lesser time to do than others!

sorry that because of your unwilling characters that i had to ask for permission to push your bathing time to the last group, which i dint mean to do that, because i wanted more time for you guys to practise..

and your dance up on stage really made us so touched!

cause it was TOO nice!

and i really miss you all a lot for your everything you made to make this camp so interesting and fun for me!

OMG. THANK YOU BUDDIESSS. <3

2007-11-17T21:50:00.000+08:00

Shall let this blog RIP after this post unless i can remember of nice things to rant on or any announcements out for cheering. =/

I found the lyrics/song title!
omg; this song is nice lah.
[especially after knowing the meanings of the lyrics.. xD]

[Romanized]:Jun-ha-ji mot-hal mahl (Goong S OST) - J

Ul-ma-na duh go-dahn-hal-gga-yo...
uh-ddu-kae duh moot-goh sa-na-yo...
Goh-gae ju-uh bwa-doh...
noon-eul gahm-ah-doh..
uh-lee-suk-gae-do jab-go eet-nae-yo...
Ah-nee-la-go mahm-eul soh-gyu-do...
ba-bo-gat-chi hoo-hwae-han-dae-do..
Ja-ggoo-mahn yuhl-ee na-go ddo saeng-gak-na-nae-yo..
Noon-chi uhp-neun ga-seum-eu-loh na geu-dael cha-ja hae-mae-yo..

*Geu-dael ee-jeu-lyu-go.. ee-jeu-lyu-go.. ji-wuh-bo-lyu-go..
Ha-loo-la-do geu-dae uhp-shi haeng-bok-han chuk oo-suh bo-ah-do..
Nae mahm gat-ji ahn-ah-suh ah-jik ahn-dwae-na bwa-yo..
Uh-ddu-kae ha-jyo..
bo-go shi-peun-dae..
Ee-byul-loh ggeut-nahl sa-lang-bo-dahn cha-la-lee geu-lee-wuh-hal-ggae-yo..
Mot-dwaen bu-leut-deul-mahn na cha-ja-bo-ah-do..
ah-moo-lee ae-leul ssuh-do..
Na-neun da-shi gi-da-lee-nae-yo..

*Geu-dael ee-jeu-lyu-go..
ee-jeu-lyu-go..
ji-wuh-bo-lyu-go..
Ha-loo-la-do geu-dae uhp-shi haeng-bok-han chuk oo-suh bo-ah-do..
Nae mahm gat-ji ahn-ah-suh ah-jik ahn-dwae-na bwa-yo..
Uh-ddu-kae ha-jyo.. bo-go shi-peun-dae..

Uhn-jae-na hang-sang mun-juh suh ee-ssut-neun-dae..
Ma-joo-chi-neun geu-dae-ae noon-eun geu-nyu-ga ga-lyu na-leul bohl soo uhp-na-bwa..
Nu-moo sa-lang-ha-neun-dae..

Jung-mahl ha-go shi-peun mahl (Ha-go shi-peun mahl)
Geu-daen deut-ji mot-hal mahl (My love)
Sa-lang-han-da-go ddo bool-lu bo-nae-yo..
Ggeut-na-ji ahn-eul geu-daen-guhl-yo..

[English Translation]:Words I Couldn't Say (Goong S OST) - J

How much more tired are you..
How much longer can you go on burying everything..
I stir my head.. close my eyes..
I'm holding on like a fool..
I try to fool my heart by saying it's not..
but like a fool I regret it..
I keep getting heated and I keep thinking about you..
Without even realizing, my heart keeps getting lost searching for you..

*I'm trying to forget you.. trying to forget you..
trying to erase you...
Even if it's just one day I'm going to act happy without you, I'm going to try to smile..
But it's not like my heart to act this way, maybe that's why my act isn't working..
What am I to do..
I want to see you..
Instead of thinking of this breakup as our love ending, I'm just going to long for you..Even if only the bad habits come and find me..
no matter how hard I try..
I'm here once again waiting..

*I'm trying to forget you..
trying to forget you..
trying to erase you...
Even if it's just one day I'm going to act happy without you, I'm going to try to smile..
But it's not like my heart to act this way, maybe that's why my act isn't working..
What am I to do.. I want to see you..

You were always the first to be standing there..
Our eyes aren't able to meet this time because she's standing in front of you..
I love you so much..

The words I really want to say (words I want to say)
Words you won't ever be able to hear (My love)
How much I love you, I cry out again..
To me it's not the end for us...

-waves to blog- RIP bloggy. i shall pronounce this blog dead till further posting. (:

2007-11-11T14:38:00.000+08:00

x3 11.11. (:

yay-ness. happy birthday to kailing[yea i put you as the first name already happy? xDD] and samantha and me! YEAH!

=O!

yeah. =O is a nice emotion.

and i feel rather/very/super guilty for forgetting so many people's birthdays when people remembered mine.

i shall squeeze as many dates as possible into my brain and remember them next year! =O!

sorry sorry! D:

-bows-

i owe alot people birthday presents too yea.. D:

shall save loads of money for next year to buy birthday presents if possible and to remember the dates ! =O

NOOO. i forgot alot le! OMG im guilty. im guilty!!!! ohhh nooo D:

i wonder how to write down thankyous for the list of people who said happy birthdaayy xD

first time got so many de! ohh man im so high :D

oh yeahhhhh. thank you and terribly sorry as well D: coz i forgot your birthdays T__T

maybe you really cant expect much from stm human beings like me. =/

im bored. so just let me think think who to thank too :D

-thankew thankew to half of zc members [where got half where got?!] who were playing gunbound at 11.11.07 12 a.m. [according to jag: jag, veron, zk, sam, monkehhhhh] (:

-thankew thankew to my father who said i shall get a birthday sweet potato without candles coz we dun have cake (:

-thankew to my mother who was so tired, yet made that sweet potato (: and also bring me around compasspoint for things i needed :D

-thankew to waffles who wasnt at gunbound [and yea thanks for that emo-ness -.-](:

-thankew to cassandra for the msn wishing and for [points at cassandra's personal message] (:

-thankew to kelicia who followed the neopets time and sent happy birthday from sms accordingly! :D and to tell me there will be people sending sms to wish happy birthday :D and commas are not nice. full stops are nicer (:

-thankew to zhixin and huishan for that sms from camp! ohhh im touched ok :D so cool leh. sms from camp :D

-thankew to christine too! and i dun wanna get cake-smashed D:

-thankew to kailing for forcing me to wish her happy birthday too! yay. tomorrow hike i shall beat you in chopsticks ok! xDD

-thankew to samantha for happy birthday thingy too! happy birthday to us! :DD

-thankew to xue er who remembered my birthday though we havent meet for so long!! (:

-thankew to valerie who remembered mine though i forgot hers! D: (:

-thankew to michelle for remembering my birthday too! [but no im not biantai. did you forget that's for huishan? xDD]

-thankew to yunjin for sms and msn wishing! :D

-thankew to my cousin[edmund] for remembering my birthday though i dint remember his! =/

-thankew to that crazy mrs ong fan who had rumour with christine [chaihao] though i dno why he knew its my birthday. is it because of my personal message? xD

-thankew to qian ci who remembered mine and thanks for that suspense tomorrow ya. =O

-thankew to jiawen maam for flipping the school diary today and seeing my birthday! so cool! yayy. im glad we vandalised your school diary =x but yayyy thankewwww :D

-thankew to snailey for the wishing at the streaming! no need pressies from shell lah xD

-thankew to ex maple guild leader wei siang too :D

-thankew to another cousin [gibson] who msn-ed me and said "I CALL YOU NOW VERY IMPORTANT, MORE IMPORTANT THAN YOUR LIFE" to just say a happy birthday :D

-thankew to cassandra de friend georgia :D

-thankew to takoooo the pro (: and yea i nv clean my room :D

-thankew to another another cousin [wilson] who msn-ed too :D

-thankew to adlyn who wrote on friendsterss :DD

-thankew to stephanieeee! (:

-thankew to kellyn toooo ! but im not born in the zoo D: xD

-thankew to ayaka too :DD

-thankew to jerrica tooo xD

-thankew to yixuan via friendsterr :DD

-thankew to alston too :D glad you know so long never talk already. always dao me...D:

-thankew another cousin [emily] toooo :D

-thankew jolene tooo :D

& last iris cousin :D

[i find it so weird when i try to name my cousins. formally with their normal names. omg. =/]

yay-ness. arigatoooo!!!! (((:!!!!

but those who i forgot the names, can kindly leave a message at the tagboard there please? D:

i have stm. please dont kill me for forgetting D:

and im starting to feel more and more guilty. i forgot to say happy birthday or even give present to dont know how many % of the people listed T_T

--*andithinkthatsmybestpresentthankyouuu....

2007-11-10T12:07:00.000+08:00

i dun like some particular people.

i noe why i dun like them but i dno why these reasons are popping up.

internal-conflict.

2007-11-08T21:05:00.000+08:00

在此声明： i am not a 3 year old kid.
i was. but i am not. and i will not be one.
so stop thinking i cant do any single thing myself at all.
thankyou.

2007-11-07T20:05:00.000+08:00

真的不知道要这么解释这个怪怪的心情。
你真的觉得你很了解我吗？
根本都不是嘛。。
你知道的，连10% 都不是。
你还可以说得那么轻松，说你了解我。
可是话又说回来，自己好像也不见得了解自己有多少。
心里的矛盾，我好像已经不懂得了。
我找不回以前的自己了。。。
我多么想要相信周围的一切。
但是总是相信不了。
谎言一而再，再而三的出现。
连笨蛋也不会再相信下去啦。
最相信的人，都相信不了。
老天爷在开玩笑啊。
一点都不好笑。。
在笑容的背后，总是有很多复杂的想法和心情。
别人不会了解，原本应该最了解的自己，不知为什么也不了解了。
好模糊，什么都看不清了。。。。
人们说经一事，长一智。
也许我能从错误中学习吧。
学习不要太轻易相信眼前的一切。
听起来，好像是很不好的教训。
人们说要相信别人。
我可没勇气这么做了啦。
我也似乎学习到，亲情的可贵。
常听说过却不曾觉得自己感受过。
我真的是生在福中不知福啊。。。=/
原来一直可以帮助的，只有亲情。。
朋友，太难找到真的会体会你的感受的人。。
朋友，也很难找到会帮助你的人。。
毕竟，我们都是现实的人。。
只要可以从中得利益，我们才会做。
人生，好像就是这么不公平，这么现实？
不懂啦。不了解了啦。好乱。我到底在说什么怪话。
我真的很想找人诉说很多很多事情。
哇，气死人了啦。

2007-11-06T18:01:00.000+08:00

1) The person who tagged you: Brindha (:

2) Your relationship with him/her: Classmates, friends.? :D

3) 5 impressions of him/her: Nice chairman :D pretty :D funny :D optimistic :D very very nice :D

4) Most memorable thing he/she has done for you:Encouragements :D

5) Most memorable thing he/she has said to you: MMMM. Cant remember. All that she say are nice luh xD

6) If he/she becomes your lover you will...Oh. If im a guy then. haha. then i will be proud that she's my lover if im a guy! hahahahaa! :D

7) If he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on:I dont know worh. xD

8) If he/she becomes your enemy you will...I will...i dont know what i will do. Having an enemy is tiring! Nah she wont be my enemy. But if she really is, the i would have avoided her bah (:

9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be...I cant find any reason. maybe because she's far too nice :D

10) The thing you want to do for him/her right now...Take a nice photo instead of one with me covering up my face. (provided i have the courage to do so xD)

11) Your overall impression of him/her is...Lovely chairman :D:D

12) How do you think people will feel about you?

Someone....extra? someone....i dont know. zhi ren zhi mian bu zhi xin so how i know xD

13) The character you love of yourself is...

Uh..uh............

14) The character you hate of yourself is...

~100% of me! :D (provided i can take out some 0.__% from this, but i dno if i can ever find that)

15) The most ideal person you want to be is...

haha. anyone that can solve their own problems and can look at things on the bright side and not go like crazy when they see things confusing that they cant solve themselves.

16) The thing you want to say now to those who care for you:

uh..sorry..thankyou..sorry..thankyou? =/

17) Tag 10 people to do this quiz:

geez. zhixin and cassandra cant run de ok. (: then. the rest of the people i wanna do tag to do this quiz, either have dead blogs or do not have blogs so..never mind. feel free to do someone/anyone. pleaseeeeee :D

2007-11-03T19:09:00.000+08:00

random.

1. i think im the only person in the whole level actually getting so over-ly sad when i got my first choice.

2. i want a zc outing D:

3. i want to go out with min ying, zhi xin and cassandra D:

4. i made myself a lot of promises to myself today which i should not say out on this blog.

5. i keep thinking my holiday is busy, until i realised it isnt. the only reason i thought it's busy is because in the past my holidays are mostly blank and only a few days taken up.

6. this blog is dying. and no jing dians seem to be able to lift it up alive since those jing dians are not suitable to be seen.

7. maybe i should leave this blog on a hiatus and let it rot until jing dians pop up in my head.

8. i still can't imagine life next year which would be no much of a difference from the worst life i can ever imagine.

9. i promise that in year 2008 i shall talk less already. so that i can create less problems. i think the only capable part of me is to follow behind people instead of speaking and making everyone angry.

10. i wanted to make 10 random stuffs but..i just can't seem to remember what i want to say. maybe i will fill this up some day if i can remember. but even if i remember i would forget the fact that i want to fill up this number 10.

11. the number 10 random thing tells me that i am suffering from terrible/worse/i dont know what stm. i suppose i have to improve on my stm. any medicine that can help this except for eating brains like what others do?

12. i promise that from now onwards i shall not allow myself to say rough words. i realised my words are all too....

13. oh. i made 12 random stuffs.

14. sorry i want to end here. like they say. 13 is an unlucky number D: so i shall not end the random things at 13. 14 would sound nicer.

hohoho. i love these random stuffs. (heh, can this be considered as number 15)

LOLS. im lame. i suppose this is because my father's lameness had passed down to me. not bad uh. (if the one on top is counted as 15 this is 16 then!)

17. i didn't know that next week is my birthday until i saw the date.

2007-11-03T10:51:00.001+08:00

im VERY worried about sec 3 already.

oh no oh no what was i thinking when i chose this combination.

im gonna drop dead for sure.

*slaps forehead*

and to think im told that alot 2/5 people chose c2..

D:

2007-11-02T21:50:00.000+08:00

/random : ive lived for 5101 days.

sounds quite short..

im lazy to count the minutes and seconds too though. xD

2007-11-02T21:35:00.001+08:00

gahahaha. im too slack xD

i cant even move out of the sofa/chair/bed if not for me forcing myself.

tomorrow is always the excuse but. oh well. xD

one fine day i will go crazy by chionging stuffs (:

2007-11-01T21:07:00.001+08:00

HAIYO. I DELETE THE POST LE LAH..

2007-10-30T00:23:00.001+08:00

-deletes details-
SOB.
fyi of what this post WAS about, it was a jing dian sentence said by zhixin, it's once in a lifetime one ok. very very jing dian. but zhixin sounded unhappy. so i removed it...
but she saved it she say, so maybe you can check it out from her.
and also...its on my tagboard lah. i just made it the central of attention on this post cause its a jing dian from zhixin <3
i dont think you would ever hear/see it anywhere else. <3

2007-10-30T00:05:00.003+08:00

very sad de leh D:

my own birthday also cannot go out with my best friends.

D:

2007-10-25T21:26:00.000+08:00

everyone's msn nick is going to make me cry again.

i miss 2/5. D:

we went through like so many things.

good or bad they are, we still went through them together as a class...

primary 6 times i dint even cry when we were separated.

2/5 is teh best man. D:

i will always remember this class.forever. D:

2007-10-25T16:20:00.000+08:00

i will miss 2/5.

today is like the last day so fast...

and so many people were crying...

even mrs chua...

geez...

the combination i chose...would i regret it...im worried i ...
eeeek.

2007-10-24T18:29:00.000+08:00

today is such a ~~depressive~~ DEPRESSING day.

~~FINE LAH MY ENGLISH LOUSY CANNOT MEH. >.<~~
~~i'm just a freaking human being that got c5 for english what!=X!~~

2007-10-22T13:58:00.000+08:00

-greiving for the pathetic terrible irritating stupid and any-bad-words-that-can-be-used-to-describe-results here.

this is bad+worse+even worse+more worse+worst.

how stupid can i get. geez.

~~first time~~ once again dreading to return home for the scoldings awaiting.

and once again hating myself.gahh.

2007-10-20T14:08:00.000+08:00

i promised myself to do one proficiency badge today but im staring like a woodblock at the checklist not knowing what to do.

roughly they looked ok. but from all of the prof badges there are at least 1 clause that i dont know how to do.

win liao loh.

now how. TT

and plus i still have to ask people for some confirmation of my confusion before i can proceed..

and can i do my testwork seriously?

GAHH. WHAT CAN I DO NOW.

gahh i dont want to go to school on monday. its gonna be the evil day where u can see all those evil fumes pop out of the test papers.~ how many papers have i counted myself to score badly already? majority loh! only 1 or 2 MAYY be fine. they dont look fine too, actually. oh-great.
whymustiworrysomuchforthesehuhs......?!

2007-10-18T19:58:00.000+08:00

argh.

im angry.

T_T

i thought i tried hard enough for my examsss.

but the results are gonna be atrocious.

gosh. kill me.

to think i stupidly careless-ed/wrote extra-stuffs-that-are-irrelevant/didnt write things which i had intended to if questions like those come out in exams/dint study the stuffs that i stupidly thought would not come out in the exams when others did.

and to think none of my answers fit the same thing in the answer sheet.

and to think i actually trusted some specific people too much whom could not have been trusted.

TT im further from my target alrdy. very far. ( very very very very very very )^x far.

for the first time in the week. im losing the yearn to actually watch tian wai fei xian.

thanks la huh. bad exams.

2007-10-17T20:35:00.000+08:00

actually you don't have to read this.

maybe one day i would go crazy and just leave myself in my own island. i mean. who cares?
:/
like they say, environment will result a change in the people living there.
so sometimes it wasnt really my fault that i am like this.
i dint change a lot.
i was like this all along.
it was just the fact that no one actually discovered this.
sometimes people really care more about who you are, not what you've done or how you've worked hard to get a good impression of yourselves on them.
if you're not the person they wanted to care of no matter how hard you've tried nothing seems to work.
sometimes behind a smile there are alotalot of things no one can see except for the person him or herself.
actually its usually the case.
thats why life is unfair?
life is never fair.
its only fair because all living things have to die and all living things have only 24 hours a day. [quoted + translated from a show]
sometimes it really sux when no one understands you.when you shout and everyone ignores you.
try talking to all your friends finding that you seemed to be talking to yourself.
im used to it already. but i wonder if anyone is in the same boat as me.
that sux huh.
maybe thats why i would rather be alone at times and think about things myself.
maybe i would have to get help from someone to hit me on my head to wake me up from this lousy thinking.
but you won't know.

2007-10-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

>=( Whats wrong with the loading of the show all of a sudden?!

TT

I think this is the first time i actually re-watched a show so happily without falling asleep.

Ah-ha.~

Nowadays so many shows to watch. whee-pees!

Ahhhhx. I like those nice webbies to give us all these lovely shows mannnn.

-And how evil are cd-rental shops not to have these shows on rent? >=(-

Anyway. I can really not think of when i can just forget about holiday-mood and start worrying for my testworks due in like less than 3 weeks time.

And..the international camp thing. IS INTERESTINGGG. HAHAHAHA.

The activities are cool+cool+cool+cool!~

And plus, friend from SKPS is going too!

Ok, i don't really know her that well but..how interesting!~

And also. obviously, so many guides going too! *Yipeesss*

-well, i wanted horse riding, but Jerrica told me not to snatch with her! *Cuz first come first get basis mah.* but like Christine say, no one will be able to accompany Jerrica then! hahahaha. :D-

AH ITS STILLLLL LOADINGGG...ZZZ.

Anyway why did i begin most of my sentences on this post with capital letters today..? Hmms.

i remembered some other day i wanted to write alot of things down.

but since i cooled down even before i could type it down here..i shan't.

maybe i would some day.

a few days later.

who knows.

these kind of things happened almost everyday.

maybe i should get used to it.

since everyone says that : THE WORLD IS UNFAIRRRR~.

alamak. it's still loading. Maybe i should go and get pokemon and play first..so slowww!

2007-10-13T01:07:00.001+08:00

i made myself mentally unstable once again.great.its happening all the time for the same thing.whatthehell.so long already. why couldnt i let go of the past and still hold it on so tightly.there wasn't any point of doing so. what was i thinking? whatthehellx.why am i getting so crazy.

2007-10-12T09:21:00.000+08:00

I'm ready to post ~~today~~ (its tomorrow already. D:) yeah?

heh heh.

but notes. i dun think u'll actually see my face. ((: coz i tried to hide. and even if there is some of them i also wont put on the blog! ahahaha.

and notes. this post is gonna be UBER LONG! ((:

so we went to sentosa. me. yunjin. (TYJ)2 and jerrica, grace, christine (the 3 zhong ji yi ban/zhong ji yi jia fans).

so we met at dhoby ghaut. (i noted the spelling already!! :D)

and on the train we talked about pokemon.

childish us. ((:

and then so we took to harbourfront and vivo city and ate our lunch first.

gosh. eating lunch at actually 10+ or 11..

but thats what i did past few days too. lolx.

but couldnt eat much coz i dint spend my brain thinking of anything hard like few days ago so i wasnt hungry.

heh but the rice grace ate looks nice. someday im gonna eat that. hmm. ((:

then we went to buy the tickets.

the guy gave us adult ones (IT WAS LOVELY-LY NICE.).

and the guy told us something 7 to 5.

i forgot what..

funny lah. (it was supposed to be 5 to 7. coz it was time or something)

then they edited him haha . :)

we intended to go and walk one round before going in.

then we went outside vivo.

the water thingy.

then we went and play with water! lalala.

and then took pictures. they said.

OURSTARSTAR. ((:

hehs. they took picture. i dint noe which one was it. so i dint save. i think.

oh. it was just the one with grace covering her face. ((:

then we went the tall tall building.

>>

tiny (TYJ)2. hahaha.

pretty posing! haha. christine jerrica grace (the grace who said that hiding was the whole point of her taking the picture like this)

the rooftop! aww. nice right!

flower on the wall when we wanted to take the car to sentosa

then christine went to take picture of grace and jerrica

then they screamed/yelled/shrieked/laughed very loudly

then i heard 2 guys say "wah.scary".

HAHA.

the green car we were gonna take.

the building that lookedl ike it eroded. so nice right!

the sea cum sky cum ships cum trees. ((:

it looks like restoring of derelict lands...

then after that we saw merlion

then we all screamed/shouted/yelled/shrieked even worse than tourists.

are we seriously born in singapore? XD

and alot pple were staring at us. HAHA.

PS! :D

we went to SONG OF THE SEA!

so nice name right.

omg. *ideasideasbyus.((:*

AND THE GAMES WERE SUPER EXPENSIVE TT

cannot afford.

x] made using branches. made by grace. so cute huh!

this means : ONG XX Y CCH. or i think its supposingly the opposite. :D

they all really so obsessed with cch obsessing with ong XX ma? hahahahahaahha.

heartx. made by me and yunjin ((: hehhhehh.

see the wooden box? XD we shuffled it up to shore! :D it was those game thingy! fun! haha. bt we dint play obviously. XD

WO MEN SHI JERRICA GRACE CHRISTINE YUJIA YUNJIN ((: (NOT IN ORDER I CANT SEE THE ORDER FROM THE PHOTO!! :D)

we went to eat ben&jerry's. not me. them. i cant afford. :D

then i was so tired/listened attentively to the lovely old english songs i dint listen to where we were going next.
we went to imbiah something by the coach.

or was it merlion walk?

we saw our good friend merlion.again.

YUNJIN. JERRICA. CHRISTINE. GRACE.

photographer. ME. :D

the evil witch thing they said story came from enid blyton. SORRY. HOW TO SPELL HIS NAME.

then we went the water water thingy.

yunjin looks emo :D

and jerrica there. :D

christine! tats dangerous ok!!

now. thats even more dangerous for jerrica. xD

that was the river.

then we heard the bell ding dingding thing.

jerrica recorded it.

we were like in front of it so it was super loud.

then we realised we walked to the beach station again alrdy.

me and TYJ go buy icecream from seven-eleven which was cheaper.

then we walked behind them being dao-ed for approx 5 mins xD

then we realised we were all lost and decided to take the tram.

so we went one round on the tram.

it was funny when we were waiting for the tram

there was this guy working there

then we they made alot of teh sounds. like the huh~ wo ting de dao~

then he keep laughing.

then when yunjin said working in sentosa is fun

he also laughed.

very funny.

the route. :D

signboard held on it. i think this is FUNNY.

we went one round on the tram.

then we went to watch the bird show.

SUPER NICE. THAT BIRDY THAT LOOKED LIKE PARROT DAMN CUTE!!

the m...something species.

then they are real actors man the birds!

and they can nod their heads when the trainer talk to them!

SO CUTEEE.

and they knwo how to plya games.

and SUKI WAS CUTE. she played cheat when she played racing games with bookie or something. hw to spel his name..

and that trainer say that we called suki SUSHI. we dint =.= haha.

then we went the beach.

i wrote this. bt cannot see properly right?

aiyo.

the sand city they built. still got the water thingy there. (my vocab is bad, i forgot what it was called. i remember i saw the spelling when i was doing history exercise wad? eh. -scratches head-)

my cups played a part in this city ok! :D

the zhong ji yi ban fans wrote : shakespear shuo: to be or not to be. that's a question. it was quoted somewhere from zhong ji yi ban. i also dno. i nv watch.

me and yunjin saw this when they climbed the bridge. LOVELY RIGHT. the cloud looked so cute!

this was lovely too. OMG. I LOVE THIS ONE.

their high-ness on the bridge. christine jerrica grace. :D the two TYJs are missing here because the two TYJs are resting on the mat trying to sweep away sand and staring at the sky and talking and listening to songs. i wonder why we did that. since we were gonna walk on sand again.haha.

that was the quote of the day again. huh~~~~~ wo ting de dao!!

from zhong ji yi ban again.

and im ending this LONG LONG LONG post with a riceball i drew. ((:

i miss yesterday. it was lovely ok~ :D

p.s. marche food is expensive. >.<>

2007-10-11T22:21:00.000+08:00

i wanna post about today.

but without the help of PHOTOS..what fun would it be posting!?

so. slowly awaits for the uploading of photos by the rest.

hahah. then i'll kope the photos and explain long-a-ly about today.

hahahaha.

and i fell down arhh!! TT

and i dun like the CME quiz =.= i think its weird. why my answer wrong?!?!?!

and i think.pokemon dislikes me.

coz i tell them i like digimon more. so i keep making wrong steps in the game.

haha.

and i found my white hair.

i think it's cool to have one strand of it among black hairs.

hahaaa. <33.

heh. all that i wanna talk now is like related to today's trip!

nevermind. QUICK UPLOAD THE PHOTOSSS~IM EXCITED. :))

2007-10-10T13:07:00.001+08:00

oh gosh. i love old english songs!

and i love pokemon!

and i love the word post-exam.

its over!! :))

no matter how i know how lousy my results are..well. just..pray.?

pray for the impossible of the impossibles.

2007-10-09T21:35:00.000+08:00

i realised i cant stay alone coz i will get angry again. nvm. its over.

I WANT TO DOWNLOAD POKEMON LEHH..

oh yes.

christine's tag on yunjin's blog reminds me my birthday is only 33 days away!! yay!

why not 35. my register number leh. ZZ.

i should have started counting down 2 days ago. then it would be 35!! yay!

entertainment time.
lets say a joke.

HOME ECONS TEXTBOOK: FIND THE HIDDEN SALT
ME: -points to the word "SALT" THERE! I FOUND IT!

sorry.
oh. zhixin told me i won't have prizes for finding it.
oh well. shy salt i found you. HAHAHAH.

oh yes. i believe zhixin bribed the television.

she learnt alot of chapter 4 from it while i didnt.

ZHIXIN. YOU BRIBE THE TELEVISIONNNNNN.

sorry. nvm. byebye.

gosh.16moredaystoo.

2007-10-09T10:50:00.001+08:00

!!!

1)im stupid enough already!

2)&im so gonna swear im so not gonna trust pple like them anymore.!!!

im angry!!!

im really angry!!!

:(!!!

i wonder how pissed off i am. this is spoiling my mood. grrr.

i swear im not gonna be so stupid anymore to do such things.!!!

im making myself even more stupid day by day!

grrr.

IM ANGRY WITH ME.KILL ME MAN. (IM SERIOUS OK.)T__T
moregoodbyestothedumbdumbaim.grrrr.rubbishme.imdumbthisentire~~term~~ ~~year~~ LIFE.
sofreaky.imnotoncehappythroughoutthisentireterm.

2007-10-08T17:28:00.000+08:00

i dno why im slacking for so long?

im gonna die for tmr's paper for slacking so much today!

zomg. TT

im worried abt today's paper o_o

ive been worrying for all the papers in fact.

dead me.

-.-

this sa2 seems far worse than other tests of mine.

its easy yet i made so many careless mistakes/dumb mistakes.

wahhh. this is the most disheartening thing on earth to have made mistakes that could have been prevented! dumb me! TT

2007-10-06T20:13:00.000+08:00

1) i promise i hate my mouse for blinking until it made me headache. (and i swear that you do not have to give me rat poison to kill it and i don't think i would want any cat/dog/other animals to replace it)

2) i swear i have short term memory to forget things im thinking of 5 seconds earlier.

3) i swear i need a character-changing-machine because i hate my character for being so selfish and idiotic and extra. im super sorry i dont mean to be so. i will try changing it in the next few days/weeks/years/decades/centuries/... oh. sorry. ASAP.

4) i swear i hate miss pereira for giving me hell for 8 hours trying to think of things for her story.

5) i'm very very disheartened that i say the wrong things everytime and make everyone so angry. im super sorry about this. especially to christine.

6) i insist that i'm very angry with my results that are going to come out in a few weeks time

7) i understand that i will never do well in exams, for those that passed and for the future 3 next week and for the future - - - i dunno how many in the next dunno how many years.

8) doraemon's cute. he is fat and he is blue. and his voice is cute. the ending of doraemon still rocked.

9) i want guides.

10) i want guides chalet/6 faith outing or chalet/camp/games that are coming up next in 4 days time.

11) im super sorry about my tag just now i was really really basing it on the past few terms de thingys. and i do not mean much. i know you all also very good in higher chinese de. we can never beat u all in higher chinese. so um im very very very very sorry dun angry please TT

2007-10-05T21:57:00.000+08:00

im weird.

i went to watch doraemon's ending all of a sudden and cried throughout the whole thing.

sob. it was nice.

2007-10-05T19:27:00.000+08:00

4th random post of the day.

>> i think there is a need to ask minying for questions before exams. the number of times her questions actually came out as in the questions in the exams tell me so. majority of her questions : there is a probability of at least 1 out of (number of questions that minying asked) that would come out in the question.

>> i suddenly realised how "busy" im gonna be after exams.

>> zhixin looked cute today with puffy eyes.

>> cassandra sounds like a matured 18 year old on radio in the computer.

>> i still loved the iodine joke i made with the inspiration and help by zhixin.
it started out when we were walking up to class after assembly today... :

me(upon walking past the full display of prizes at the general office and seeing one pyramid-shaped prize) : -to zhixin- the first impression that came into my mind was 1/3 x base area x height when i saw this prize

zhixin: -to minying- omg. the first impression that came to her mind was maths!

me: maths is in our daily lives!

me(walking up with jerrica), suddenly thought of something.

me to zhixin: you know. science can be in our daily lives too! (zhixin had the same idea as me) elements can be used in our names! like say (e.g. my name had U and I. U = Uranium I = Iodine)

upon reaching class .

zhixin: oh. so i got more iodine than u!

me: so you can pour the iodine on you and you would be blue-black!

zhixin: oh. =o no wonder i always have blue-black!

yea. so thats how my joke came.

(actually there's no 100% accuracy in the words, but the meaning is there thats all.)

dont understand what im writing? haha nevermind. i summarise.

conclusion: if the science test paper asked us to name some chemical changes that takes place in our daily lives, we could reply our answer as :

iodine in our names can turn us blue-black because of presence of starch in us!

:D

the end. :D

2007-10-05T18:06:00.000+08:00

freakingly gonna slack for the whole day :D

thanks to cassandra for telling me about the radio thing to make me slack hahah.

random.justignorethis.
youwerethereason;
arethereason;
andwillstillbethereasonforaslongasitcanbe.
=x

2007-10-05T14:55:00.000+08:00

i just realised something

i cant get the marks i want for overall!

boo-hoo! T______T

what a disheartening discovery to sink my heart down.

(actually i knew this long ago?i think i was just trying to lie to myself i will get the results i want. but i just realised it is an impossible task, basing it on my faults and errors.i should have known not to put high hopes on my exams. it never gets alright.)

2007-10-05T12:22:00.000+08:00

i'm so gonna slack for the time being. :D

for today perhaps?

my gawd. 5 exams gone just in one week! hahahha :D

muahahahha :D

3 MORE. JUSTTT. 3.

3!!!

i'm already thinking of alot of things that are so gonna happen in the post exams.

oh yea oh yea~ niceeee. :D

2007-10-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

KEHLEESHER says:
SET UP POLICE FORCE

KEHLEESHER says:
WALAO POLICE GO SWIM

KEHLEESHER says:
TAKE DUCK FLOATS SWIM

KEHLEESHER says:
ya. then teacher mark me wrong i go say

KEHLEESHER says:
THE POLICE GOING TO SWIM TO THE PIRATES AND ARREST THEM?

omg. i find this funny. thankew kelicia for letting my copy this :D

i dint copy my words :D

anyway. i think im going crazy bcoz of geog.

juz imagine i write the notes until so bored i drew smileys all over(geog not happy la why smileys) and highlight all over and put alot of im-talking-to-myself-conversation stuffs all over.

2007-10-01T13:14:00.000+08:00

so stupid la today's paper -.-

why didn't i go and read the notes?

dumbb.

i didn't read for the gong han and the zuo wen?

then so many things never write.

boos.

i'm gonna flunk for geography.

nothing reaches my head since i'm busy with my head filled with unrelated stuffs.

i think the only things in my head are abit of chapter 8 and 9 and 11 and maybe also a bit of 3.

and i've been slacking so much these few days.

TV, computer, thinking of unrelated stuffs. :D

and my pen lost it's ink and so i have to type out my notes.

boos.

and i'm gonna die for tomorrows paper too. for sure.

and i eat alot.

imagine i've been eating non-stop for the past 2 hours.

:D

lalaa. i'm dying because of examss.

i want holidays and chalets.

boohoo.

i find it so nice to have someone unrelated to pour something to. it feels so much better. i didnt know i could actually find someone so unrelated to to pour things out to. especially after that time.

2007-09-29T18:38:00.000+08:00

i don't understand the smile at the bottom of my blog.

my blog don't look happy at all.

i don't understand the point of misunderstandings.

it wasn't what i wanted.

but that was what people did quite a few times.

and i'm super duper fed up of reasoning out.

i guess i should just keep quiet.

2007-09-28T23:52:00.000+08:00

i reckoned i am gonna flunk my geography.

i tried to study. and nothing got into my head.

i'm in deep trouble wow.

and to think i already forgot the chapters i studied a few weeks back.

so sickening.

anyway.

i didn't even intend to blog first..

i was forcing myself to blog after the exams?

but. i am currently bored.

telling me to study geography currently can kill.

so i should just blog here..for a while..-ZZZ-.

i cannot imagine my bad bad bad luck.

around 300 days ago just something so bad hit me and then changed my life totally?

it was so heavy that i could not even forget until now?

misunderstandings. i'm still quite confused how misunderstandings came in between until now.

it's one way round or the other way round?

even if i find out now actually there is no use already?

time could heal the wound?

why could it heal others' wounds but not mine?

or am i just refusing to let it heal that's why?

i don't know.

this incident is like making a total change in me?

for good or for bad, i think i'm not sure. more to the bad i guess.

since i'm a lousy person at adapting to changes.

i had to blame myself too though, for this incident.

i think i was stupid to let it happen.

it hit me more than the other person involved.

at least i presume it that way, since i'm actually taking a longer time to cure it.

but as if this incident was not bad enough already, i was hit by so many things in between this period?

especially now when exams are shifting near?

no, they aren't shifting near. in fact. they are HERE.

exams is one problem too ok.

why must i still be hit by 2 friendship problems?

i know it was my fault in both cases but. was there a need to be scolded so harshly?

fine, life is unfair, but this is affecting my studies badly.

how bad can that be. oh gosh.

i find it stupid to be crying so often this whole year.

wth?

for all i know the number of times i cried this whole year can be compared with the number of times i cried when i was super young already.

nothing helps for me.

no one nor anything?

and it's so not that i'm so emo these few months?

it's just the matter whether i'm showing myself out to people or not?

that's all what i thought.

anyway. i think i reached a conclusion for typing out all these things.

i know everything is my fault. i have learnt from the first incident that i have to blame myself for everything. it was the same case for everything. i can never do things i plan to do myself properly. that's why i failed for every single thing i wanted to do or cannot even find anyone to spill beans out to? why was it that before the first incident i could never have found out that i had so many problems in me that caused people to drift further away from me? was it that only when i am drifted away from everyone can i find out all these? i don't even suppose that anyone would understand how i felt.

heh. what am i doing. this is so affecting my studies. why are all these things popping in my mind at so the very wrong time? my goshh. get out of my head permanently! if it is im possible, just get rid of my brain temporarily! until the exams are gone, i would not mind if you rush in again! oh my goshh!

i presume that everyone thinks i'm suffering from mental illness from the previous paragraph. don't mind me -.-

however so, i find that trying to remain cheerful and appearing that nothing was wrong is hard. very hard. smiling not from the bottom of the heart is hard. i wished i could but i couldn't ever since the incident that affected me super duper badly.
dont worry if you realised you cannot read the whole post. it was not supposed to be read. it was supposed to have been in my heart forever but this whole thing is making me so crazy i have to lift it up from my heart temporarily because it is heavy.hahaha. this message is RANDOM.

2007-09-25T20:14:00.000+08:00

Rain Rain RAIN.

Now i know how 365 days could make such a huge difference.

简直是天壤之别啊！

I want the rainbow to come quickly!

2007-09-14T22:48:00.000+08:00

i miss chocolate milk =x

i wanna drink.

hehs.

i feel hated today.

as in i do everyday, but i feel super hated today.

especially when cheryl said i pang-sey-ed her? =x

and because of the you-know-what incident?

and because i was busy scrubbing the metal tin until i didnt know it was closing ceremony..it was like. im so..extra that moment..when i ran down from scrubbing of metal tin.=x

and when i was late too for computer lab.

=Xx

and when i felt that i couldnt help to do anything cause i kept making errors during the fire thing.

anyway i seriously dislike that ~~teacher~~ la. =xx

sorry!

but..not my fault la. sounded so sarcastic..

so evil can.

dislike us also dont need like this

evil evil evil!!

haix.

-.-

oh wells.

i want to be a virtual image!

then i would not be someone who could do anything to make people hate me le.

coz i wont make mistakes.

and i can just stand there doing nothing and live my life like that.

things are gonna get boring like this but i wont mind la!

and then i also wont have to study cause i dont even need a job.

and then. things are gonna be so much easier.

i wont have feelings either.

so i wont feel hurt when i hurt others or others hurt me.

virtual images. are therefore. better than real images.

mms.

oh. and today was fun

the filming thing

then we did firelighting.

crapped alot

i keep singing the "campfire's burning" song. :D

it gave me the impression its campfire

then we all tried to light the matchstick for so long.

the matchbox was spoilt!

and then when the filming person came and the fire immediately went off!

haha =x

the twigs and all that were wet la.

then the firewoods things were like wanna spoilt liao.

one brokee.

anyway we went crapping while waiting for the filming person lor.

"small bonding session"

haha.

2007-09-13T21:22:00.000+08:00

too tempted to come online.

=

dead.

=.=

i seriously have to lock off my computer off my memory and off my sight.

it just DISTRACTS me.

i need lessons.!

lessons on how to concentrate on muggings instead of oning the computer to play.

and lessons on how to just freakingly forget the past and just move on, look in front and just do what is important right now!

ZZZ!

2007-09-12T20:39:00.001+08:00

haha. today is funny la.

i brought HEAVYYY bag to school.

ok. thats not funny.

then chinese was funny la.

the 4 pictures thing i was only describing the picture.

xD xD. i wont win anyway . :))

and history was ok lehs.

finally got fun stuffs other than source base.

haha.

then they all bring the weird weird black tube thingy and spray it around the class.

full of that smell la. the whole day.

science was like. so cheapskate de our school.

is our school broke until like that?

but the experiment was still COOL~

hahhahhh.

english and efl were spent on watching the zoom show.

and its nice.

i dint watch much.

time spent on maths.

hard hard. sob sob.

i took super long to find out the answers in front.

behind. STUCKED.

sobs.

then i do until 2.30 or so then go and find they all and go for guides!

oh its nafeeshah's birthday la.

then its so funny can.!

haha.

when i came home with samantha we saw a cute cute cat which sticked to samantha and like.

omg la it was cute.

it curled up on samantha and like. lie on her shoe.

cutecutecute.

testwork done.

silver.

muahaha.

i only did one more clause copy only -.-

xDxD

2007-09-10T22:25:00.000+08:00

ok.

today is sci specialist thing the pri sch pples come one!

so cool.

naval base pri sch and st nicks.

haha. st nicks reminds me of the st nicks guides incident xDD

then then ya.

and then at first they went to canteen to grab a bite.

it was cool la. they super sticked with their teacher de.

and then we brought them to research lab.

then we went down bring naval base pri sch.

thn jerrica was super excited. her primary school marhs!

and then after that was quite sianed. coz dno hw to interract with them.

then listen listen.

not bad la. got like small revisions for the exam -.-

so not bad la!

then i went to talk with 3 st nicks girls.

super cute la xDD

they were nice and cute and CLEVER.

they showed me their report books.

zomg la. pri 1 to 5 all like band 1 or As.

higher chinese can also get 93?

WOW LA.

haha.

then i accidentally spilled the EXPENSIVE water thing the teacher said x.x

ok ya. and the st nicks girls were funny.

they dint dare to go our toilets which they stated that the light was flickering and scary.

:D

and then after that teach teach all that then we go home..

ah ya. and the st nicks. girls were so nice.

they actually made goodbye cards coz i wont see them again xD

so nice so nice!

im not nice ma. is they nice. so they make. although im un-nice.

but it was cool for me la. first time i knew people can have idea of doing small goodbye cards in these cases..

aww. they are nice friends. xD

2007-09-09T21:53:00.000+08:00

((:

(NOTE: PHOTOGRAPHER - CHRISTINE LEE SHER YUN)

OMFG!

SO NICE RIGHT.

THIS IS A SUPER NICE TROPHY SEY.

OMG LA.

WE ACTUALLY WON SECOND.

(you wont imagine how we YELLED like hell out of happiness when the 3rd was heard and it was NOT us!)

and then AI yelled like hell too when we were 2nd - not them.

haha.

so the campfire was fun!

and i saw shumei xDD

actually i think i screwed up the dance item la.

but then at least we won 2nd

OMG la.

it was so nice.

YAYY.!!

MUAHAHHAHAHA.

huishan said the campfire was loud from her house.

my father also say he can hear from our house.

wow.

our house so far can hear.

haah.

we must have been SUPER LOUD!

HOHOHO.

:))

2007-09-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

time are all gonna be squeezed together like SIAO to do super lots of things!

wow man. this kinda sux. -.-

i have this kind of urge almost everytime i on my computer to look back at my memories - the best memories ive ever had which brought me the most pain as well.

sounds contradicting but. yes.

so am i to smile or to cry when i see these memories. i think i do both everytime.

-.-

i know these memories are like so going to be etched in my mind for such a long time.

because there are so many things in one day that can happen that can trigger my memories.

the painful and happy parts of it.

but. like what the word memories tell you - they belong to the past.

but but. people say to look forward instead of looking behind.

but. this "behind" is more interesting than "forward" lehs.

-.-

i dont feel excited about looking forward to futures.

more things unfold day by day and more pain they will bring.

thats why i never wanted to look forward ever since i realised this.

ok. im a super weird person.

2007-09-05T20:12:00.001+08:00

oh yea oh yea!

WE GOT INTO THE NORTH DIVISION THING!

whee whee whee!

omg omg omg.

you know! so happy! :D

HOHOHO.

we worked hard ok!

esp the person who almost wanna break down la.

you know who huh! so obvious! HAHA.!

yay yay.

but then one day gone from holidays again.

now thas a BOO.

DX

2007-09-04T21:26:00.000+08:00

oh yea. 6faith meeting today.

..

yea rite. it dint look like one.

10+ people = class meeting?

ha.ha.

anyway was supposed to watch rat-a-too-ee?

then it was supposed to start at 2.20

we reached at 2

and dno why the show start at 2

so they decided to watch 1408

so reluctantly hv to agree lohs.

it starts at 3.25 la.

and the nxt rat show starts at 330..

we should hv gone to watch it Dx

this 1408 no nice DX

the story so weird.

n wif those booming sounds. and those pictures of those people.

quite scary?

haha.

quited scared dao when the BOOMINNGGG sound came in suddenly la.

n i can see some other people were scared too.

ESP MICHELLE.

she was the one who suggested 1408.

and end up?

she was the one who was scared until covered with jacket and hide at huishan and refused to watch MOST of the show?

hohoho.

even me and audrey still got watch ok.

funny la.!

hohoho.

and then we came out and mr chan came and like talk talk talk lecture lecture lecture talk talk talk talk talk blah blah blah then went off-.-

sounds weird to me -.-

and then boyao came and michelle went with him

funny lor!

they told mr chan he was michelle's COUSIN.

HAHA.

and then went back and thats it?

oh. this 6faith meeting sounds weird..

and my SWENSENS Dx

turned into SAKAE SUSHI Dx

ok la. sushis are nice but.

but i never step into swensens before ma.. i wanna go in eat..Dx

how evil. hmfphs.

2007-09-02T11:50:00.001+08:00

nownow.

i cant stop posting again when i on my com when i wanna listen to songs while doing homework.

so stupid -.-

im coughing like hell!

thanks to christine la..

she made me so moody i wanna go and eat chocolates..

then now become lidat.

-.-...

then plus yesterday arrow scouts campfire..

so scream and yell alot lor.

if not for joyce de 2 wonderful ricola maybe i would have lost my voice ! :D

the ricolas were nice.

haha.

their campfire got alot of songs hah.

and then had music.

but i keep thinking the music made the whole thing so anti-climax.

and then we were actually late for the campfire, but the campfire havent start!

haha. coz there were human jams.

then it started like about 8?

so slow?

and until 10?

and then when we were on the bus there

my bag was wet because the liang cha spilled on my bag and my book & umbrella & hat were wet-.-

stupid stupid.

had to go home and wash and had a big scolding from my mum.

and once again we never win best supportive lor..

stupid...

neverminds..

but i think i was quite -.- yesterday.

sorry x.x

and after that samantha de parents came to fetch again

so good la XD

then ate "supper"

nice nice :D:D:D

then go home liaos!

when i reached home alreaady 11.30 lohs.

what a campfire!

yay.

northdivision campfire coming up as well.

wahahha.

~~and i still have alot of homeworks to do though.sigh~~

stupid stupid.

homeworks arh!

evil teachers giving us so much homework...-.-

and when exams are coming too..

weird lahs!

-.-

~~my mum says i cannot do anything correctly.~~
i guess so too yea.?
im always making faults and errors.
and my results sux.
homeworks all full of corrections.
too lazy to do homework.
cannot solve problems myself.
maybe im too dependent on others?
and now i cant study.
things just dont go into my brain.
then im so "capable" of making others angry and pissed
i offend people super easily.
and i usually dont know whats going on around me.
i just cant do anything right yea?

2007-08-31T15:16:00.000+08:00

i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself .!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

im lousy -.-

oh my gosh.

im so nothing compared to anyone else in this world.

im useless im useless im useless!

why can everyone reach the expectations i want myself to reach but cannot reach?

i tried my best already!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

is my limit only up to this?

CMI laahhhhhsss!!!

i cannot make it for anything sia.!

am i supposed to come into this world to be laughed at others because of me being so useless?

if it is just let me go will you!

why not anyone BUT ME?

2007-08-30T22:28:00.001+08:00

i feel useless and stupid.

my results sux.

its like

most of the people improved their marks and i deproved.

why am i so lousy?

if people can improve why cant i?

even my parents are disappointed?

they tell me to improve.

how to learn for sa2..

so many things.

and ive to focus super much on it.

but how?

ever since start of term 3 i cant focus on anything already.

why? how?

am i going to die for this sa2?

i think i am?

im very much going to?

so many tons of homeworks

so many tons of revision waiting to be done.

how how how??

2007-08-29T22:27:00.001+08:00

oh great.

i dont understand history geography science maths?

dead!?!?!?!!

IM DEAD.

OH NO DX

and then now maths all the questions i cannot do..

nonono!!

shucks T___T

science also must look textbook then know..

then the chapters teach so fast blur blur de.

history teacher keep teaching source-based and all those alot marks questions

so listen until like want to sleep like that.

so didnt listen attentively.

dint listen attentively in geog as well.

coz the teacher..

and then geog so many things must read ourselves..

OH NO. DEAD SIA.

nonono.

and so BIG pile de homework.

BIGBIG.

holidays are stolen away..

BOO-HOO-HOO.

this is bad.

real bad.

super bad.

evil-ly bad.

&i cant imagine how will life be, so miserable..without the help of chocolates to calm down..
of course not forgetting the lovely lovely songs :D

& i need alot of help for my english. i CMI for it. dead! dead! dead!

& still got girl guides testworks/prof badges/campfires!

ZOMG ZOMG ZOMG -.-

2007-08-26T23:11:00.000+08:00

i think i cmi for the dance thing la.

you know.

i cant really imagine what life would be without guides.

no one to complain about stuffs to.

though i still have alot of things to talk about.

i think im very scorpio-y

what to do? christine says im 100% scorpio.

coz im in the middle.

im evil i hardly trust people i.. .... &..&..&..

yah yah.

maybe because the person whom i trusted the most disappeared.

thats why i cant really trust people

seriously there is so many things kept in me.

many things people dont know.

i dont know.

something's wrong with me.

there are alot of things confusing me.

and alot of things headache-ing me.

but. how am i to tell anyone...

2007-08-25T00:38:00.000+08:00

it's after 12.

so it's saturdae!

and i'm still here.

shows are addictive.

hohoho.

i'm lazy to do anything now..

and my not-yet-bought thingy..

oh noo..

deadline coming soon.

arghs.

time pass too fast le.

how arh! die!

actually..

whats the point of buying and doing anyway?

for all i know it can be found inside the rubbish bin when that day comes.

it is so highly percentage-d that it won't be a success?

but why do i still want to do?

im weird!

and im so lazy i havent change the songs in my mp3.

i'm so lazy there are so many things ive not done.

i'm so lazy i'm scolded for my lousy results which was pulled down by srp.

omg can i hate projects T_T

and i got lousy results for maths due to projects too can.

my this term de marks = DEAD.

SIANX!
想回到过去.

2007-08-23T20:23:00.000+08:00

couldnt post yesterday.

got error.

my tooth is extracted.

feels weird when youre eating and you realised there is a hole.

and when u brush your teeth too.

it is not growing yet!

omg im so sad.

i think im very weird today.

i made alot of funny mistakes.

and i spoiled the whole caffeine experiment.

omg i so dui bu qi jerrica T__T

so sorry >.<

and i think i laughed too much today as well because i made too many mistakes.

and then my hand got in contact with the corrosive sodium hydroxide which makes your hand feel "spicy".

and then it got in contact with my finger and then somehow got got corroded?

sounds weird. is it the correct word.

and then i was super impatient in this experiment.

first time i got so super impatient that i made it worse.

omg.

so dui bu qi jerrica ahh T__T then she dun have caffeine le >.<

z.z.z.

nothing else to post le..

OH YA.

i saw an aoi hoshi in my pocket!

omg so nice can!

HAHAHA.

FATE! :D

im thinking too much.. 就算
我在你的脑海里只是一个迷失方向的路人，但是你也许永远都不知道你就像是我的全世界一样的重要。

2007-08-18T23:03:00.001+08:00

ta-da!

im experiencing the after-effects of punishments.

luckily today isnt a school day..whew..

anyway ive been so slacking the whole day muahahaha.

watching shows are nice.

and i was awoken by christine to do testwork when i was sleeping nicely because it was raining.

then i went up intending to do the testwork when i started playing until 4 when i began to get serious to do testwork and i had to go at 5 to my grandma house.

and i did my homework for hours because i was watching youtube.

hohoho.

lets show people something nice first.

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许多不断重复的音乐。熟悉的微笑和声音。不能挽救的错误。一场不应该发生的误会。一个难以选择的问题。无助。一些已被别人遗忘的回忆。一个来不及回答的答案。我是笨蛋。。天啊。。

2007-08-17T21:28:00.001+08:00

im gonna make a long post.

because this is an interesting week.

ps. interesting just means special. not as in its fun.

ah ha.

but first 2 days i cannot remember.

lets skip them.

wednesday

tada.

lets see why it was special.

oh. coz it was the only day without exam in this week. is it?

and there was napfa so i missed gurl guides.

haha. napfa. oh yea.

and i was quite sad for a moment because something happened.

ahh Dx

thursday

oh yea. thursdae got pe and so we got shuttle run for the napfa coz it rained and we missed out.

so yep.!

and we played captain's ball with 1/1 and i fell down lol.

i have the tendancy to bump to others everytime i realised.

the captain's ball was superb.

almost whole class playing.

so super cool.

guess im gonna miss 2/5 when we are going to sec 3.

and there is the killer paper mental algebra test.

oh man.

im gonna die for it?

haha. say hi dead to me.

my marks sux enuf alrdy.

why still add it on with this thing?

wad bad luck.

friday

oh yea. today!

so much to say today.

muahah.

lets begin with schwrk first!

tada.

hme ec got easy test!

lit was sooo. stupid?

because of the poem!

and my hand ached!

srp.

i tell u srp it seemed so hopeless for my grp.

coz our ppt was like?

we put in effort le bt got errors.

will it seem like we are unprepared?

sigh lor.

and then one more killer paper the chi hist!

omg. im gonna die for it.

and then eng format letter.

sighs.

oh then i went to find christine and grace with jerrica.

heh heh.

then we talked and christine introduced the use of fabric paint to save my guides tee.

oh man~!

and we went to do testwork and punishments?

leg pain xD

200 squats and 60 jumping jacks.

so yah.

and then we can sell guides cookies omg omg :D :D

guides cookies are back!

ooh yea~

i only noe now it is counted in pna points.

opps. sorry i dint noe at first.

oh man. guides cookies are yummy.

i wan buy i wan buy xD

n i bugged some to buy the guides cookies wahhaha.

agree please! muahah.

anyone else? :D

oh yeas. and then went home.

heh. i thought there was alot i wanted to write one?

ok nevermind.

anyways.

and then these 3 days sooo stupid.

coz we had to mug for tests.

and i tell u we are all going crazy.

imagine 5 tests in 1 day.

heh. i cant rmb wad to say le. nvm..

OH. i remember le xD

when i was walking home i saw this small boy crying.

the usual old me i would have walked away thinking to help or not and i would feel bad because i dint help.

but today i was thinking of helping for the first time.

he was so pitiful.

i asked him.

he said he is a pri 4 and he dint dare to go home bcoz his father will beat him and sometimes his mother and his mother say she wont care if the father beat him anymore and the father beat him these few days coz the teacher anyhow complain (why got this kind of lousy teacher one..opps.) and then his father can beat until his legs cannot move or stuff.

so poor thing T___T

like the little ironies stories sia T___T

so i accompanied him for 20 minutes and persuaded him to go home but to no avail.

so see. im a bad persuader.

and then i think its his teacher, came and helped him so i walked off.

haix.

this guy so ke lian.

the father..

>.<

i saw michelle and _____ on my way home.

i dint find the need of filling in the blank because everyone noes what is there. lol.

and so i went home! TADA!

and i realised something.

i ate chocolates everyday this week :D

omg. chocolates are super duper nice.

oh im wasting money on chocolates sia.

hoho.

I WANT TO BUY GIRL GUIDES COOKIES AS WELL.

oh man, mint and chocolates are so nice.

the other one, i dno what it is :D

im a weird person who dun like nuts so u cant depend on my ans for this coz pple like that while i dint haha.
>海鸟跟鱼相爱，只是一场意外。x/33 <

2007-08-14T16:13:00.000+08:00

imagine not having the literature test today?!

hah?!

what a torture.

this will force us to study more to prepare for it again huh?!

OMG. how could they do this to us?!

and how much was i thinking of slacking for today...

sigh?!

chocolates are nice.

and especially when you're feeling down?

but what if you always eat chocolates but it never helps in cheering you up?

nevermind. still chocolates rawk. x)

2007-08-13T22:38:00.001+08:00

learnt a bit of little japanese simple words from zhixin

as in pronounciation only.

aoi hoshi is nice!

though it isnt the phrase i want.

but it is still nice :D

because of some reasons others wont understand why i find it nice.

i doubt i said to anyone why these 2 words are nice before.

but i love it!

and i found a nice song too =D

ok, i dint noe the title last time. so i was happy i found the title.

i want to learn how to do headstand.

i want to do D:

because im going crazy because of the tests.

imagine that this CA2 im already going crazy because i flunked so many papers already.

and going to flunk 4 or 5 more later this week.

especially the one tomorrow which huishan cried for?

if huishan cried i think can prepare to die already.

CA2 already going crazy, how am i gonna go for SA2 coming in a few more weeks time too.?

you know this sux right.

i wont believe if im the only one going crazy.

i cant be the only one larh!

RAHS.

and i almost forgot!

testworks and proficiency badges!!!

OMG.

RAHHS.

2007-08-10T22:49:00.000+08:00

maybe i put too much hope in many stuffs and look forward to too many stuffs.

thats why i tend to get alot of disappointments in my life.

maybe because im too slack and i always put things till the end before starting to do.

thats why i always get fed up and all when i realise i have a lot of stuffs undone.

im like. so lazy?

hahs.

everything's not done properly nowadays.

something's wrong with me.

in this state, im gonna flunk all my exams and tests.

i already flunked some ok.

the rest havent because not tested yet marh.

gonna die la.

something's wrong with me.

i cant buck up.

and i think too much of other stuffs than exams.

im so not set-ted into the examm moodd.

and obviously not in the mood of testworks too.

this explains how lazy i can get!

and i realised how sucky i can look in photos.

i suck in all kinds of photos?!

ever since how many years ago it has been this way.

ok..i understand..

2007-08-09T14:09:00.000+08:00

I SO MISS MY CPU XD

it was sent for repair for 2 weeks from 270707 so i dint get a chance to post on the campfire!

but i die die must post on it though it is late for 2 weeks i dun care!!

it was super duper fun can.

it RAWKS.

alot of us were so high!

esp a.guides!

:D

minying was like -.-

she was "dating" outside lar -.-

bad minying.

hmfphs~

the ri01 dance was cool!

but i dunno why they nv win best item.

hmm.

the cheers were addictive.

the graces too :D for me.

guides tee was COOOL.

sec 3 dance was COOL.

oh man.

and although the campfire was in the hall it was still COOL.

i dint think it was at first.

but it was cool!

as in like. got the qi fen u know!

hahaha.

sec 2 dance was the first item and i was so glad it was.

coz it was over in a while and it was nice to be over :D

but i love the sec 2 dance as well cause we put in so much effort ^^

i saw shumei!

hehs. i almost couldnt recognise her :D

gateway was nice!

but shaky as well.

and the knots were hard to untie.

forget what else to say ler Dx

nevermind!

campfires are nice.

i dont wanna care anymore about others saying it's not nice.

coz they dunno hw to appreciate!

only people who ever prepared so hard for campfires know!!

those that hardly go for campfires obviously will find campfires unnice..

anyway. i am SUSPECTING that someone's got into my account.

because how could i be online on my sis's msn when my cpu's like

sent for repair?!

HMM.

and yes.

todae is NATIONAL'S DAY!

SINGAPORE'S 42 YEARS OLDDD!

but i guess this is somehow the worse national's day i will ever have.

imagine a national's day when u cant scream and yell and you have to mug.

rahhs.

i hate studies!!

who doesnt? hmms.

the ndp parade was cool.

but i wished i was there Dx

i so envy them!

ok. my footdrill is tooo lousy.

nevermiindd..

oh gosh. i almost forgot why i on the computer.

Dx

2007-07-26T22:17:00.000+08:00

21 more hours!

how exciting!!

XD

tomorrow will rock!

woooots.!!

2007-07-25T22:25:00.000+08:00

45 MORE HOURS TO CAMPFIRE JOIE DEVIVRE!

-counted according to christine's countdown xD-

yayss.

oh yes.

i must sooooo thankk jingqiu for helping with the cross-stitch!

i almost died from it!

jingqiu super fast and super good at it xD

xDD

and our souvenir is hopefully gonna be done by tomorrow!

woooo-hoooo!!!

and jiahuii sooo zi bei.

cannot lidat!

ure supperrrr good and super nice!

without you we all cmi for this de xD

you rawk!

cannot so zi bei say not nice de Dx

ohh. im crapping xD

i forgot to bring sci theory book home!

omg omg~~!!!

how forgetful can i get?!?!?!

sobsss.

tomorrow hand in then i die le alamak!

sobb!

arhh T__T

i flunk my history and maths.

not doing good this whole year.

or to narrow down. this term was super bad.

oh my god?

sky.stars.swings.places.memories.?
somuchmore.somuchmore.
andthingsdoneandwordssaid.
somanysomany.
icouldntforget.
howcouldyou?
soeasily?
aretheysounimportanttoyoutoremember?
ifyoucouldremember, whywasitsoeasyforyoutomoveon?
whycouldnti?
istoppedformonthstillnow.
whycouldyoumove?
seeingyouwasnice.
evenifitfeltweirdforyou.
butimsureyoudontfeelthatwayido.
butidoubticanstillmoveonallthesame.
soiguessiwillhavetostayherebehindlookingtilltheend.

2007-07-22T21:55:00.000+08:00

1 more day to qc.

3 more days to the dno what comp.

4 more days to oral.

5 more days to CAMPFIRE!!

am i supposed to be happy or sad that campfire's coming?

but quite cool, this year so many schools.

and the gateway is nicee.

with help of bp scouts.

hmm.

souvenirs still got quite alot, tmr qc got enuf time anot leh?

and jiahui so super stressed..

=

ohs.

shall quote something from christine & yunjin

"aim for the sky, so when you fall, you reach the clouds!"

i like this quote :D

~~maybetheyareright.maybeishouldstop.iknowthingswillneverchangeformeagain.~~
silencewaswhatittookfromthestart.
tilltheend.
iknewthiswasdifferentfromwhatifeltlasttimethough.
imstilltryinghardeventhoughidintthinkishould.
itwasmethinkingtoomuchallalong.
ikeptthinkingthingswillchangeagain.
itwonteventually.
wasitmyfaultfromthestart?
becauseidintnoethecorrectwayofansweringtomakethingsright?
thatswhatgottenthewholestoryconfusedandchanged?
promisesmaynotalwaysbetrueicansee.
howevertheycanbekeptinyourmindforever.
howeverthewordsandpromisesandactionsandoccassionscanbekeptinyourmindforever.
oncegonetheywouldnotbebackagainforever.
maybelasttimeeverythingwasgreat.
buttheywillneverbeeveragain.
nomatterhowmuchitemsicankeepofthepasttoremindme.
nomatterhowdeepthoselovelydaysandwordsandpromisesandactionsandoccassionscanbeetchedinmymindforever.
theproblemistheywouldneverreturn
butoncetheyweregoneitseemedlikehelltome.
itseemedasifilostmygoalandeverything.
maybebecauseiwaslivingtoomuchinthatway.
maybebecausetheywereallahabitthatbecamepartofme.
sooncegoneilosteverythingandevenmyself.
sorryisneverusefulanymore.
sorryisntatimemachine.
itsallmyfaultfornotexpressingmyselfbetterandtruthfully.
maybeiactedtoostrong.
maybethatswhateveryonesaidandevenwhatithoughtishoulddo.
butnochoiceicouldntdothat.
maybebecauseifelltoomuchintotheholeofthisandicantgetupfromit.
foralliknowitwilltakemeforevertogetupfromthis.
nochoice.youplayedtoomuchaheavyroleinmylifetobereplaced.
forever.

2007-07-20T22:16:00.000+08:00

most of us are stressed.

it's like 7 more days to campfire.

plus exams and a lot of homeworks right now larhs.

TIRED.

ARHHH.

but jiahui maam more tired and stressed barhs..

haix.

and sec 2 dance too.

arhhs Dx

2007-07-16T22:13:00.000+08:00

difference of 8 seconds leh!

im so angry hmfphs!

Dx

im starting to cough thanks to my mum who passed it to me!

rahhsssssss.

and my geography workbook is gone

i want to cry liaoo....

if its gone..

DIE sia..

mannnnnn....

im escaping right.
i dont think i dared to face the truth.
i dont think i dared to face the exams and school.
i dont think i dared to face homeworks.
i dont think i dared to face projects.
i dont think i dared to do anything.
i can set my mind to do anything.
but when the time comes i will shrug outta it.
all i know is i just want to lie down and stare up at the ceiling.
whenever i have headache over these stuffs..
i just shrug out of it.
scaredy cat.
i dont want each day to come.
everytime they come i will have headache.
actually i dont want tomorrow to come either.
cause when it comes its gonna end.
one reason is from tomorrow.
but.
after tomorrow there are so many more tomorrows filled with so many more stuffs.
i dont want to face them..
super super tired.
im super super lousyy.
i cant do anything right and i cant face anything properly.
thats me huh.

2007-07-12T15:50:00.000+08:00

i dont like the tests rushing up

i dont like fitness test

i dont like crime prevention badge.

不知道从什么时候开始这个乱七八糟的事情了
好像是很久以前了吧。。
不知道从什么时候是我第一次想要忘掉它。。
也不知道自己想要忘记时，却又放弃这个念头，到底几次了。。
也不知道为了这件事而失眠多少次了，或做过这么多自己从来不会因为自己而做的事了。。
也不知道哭了多少次，或是在何时才能忘记。
太难忘记。
无法忘记，无法从中学会，无法知道自己原来这么没有用，。。
跟着时间走而学习，我试过了，但是做不到。
我并不像别人那么容易忘记。
人家都放弃了而前进
我还停留在这里。
明明知道什么都没有用了嘛，那我为什么还那么无聊的想这么多。。
啊。。。。

2007-07-11T21:05:00.000+08:00

sians siiaaaas.

my computer is gonna be gone soon

so shall post nonsense here before it is gone in like..dont know when, and wont be back for months.

im gonna miss my computer!

ive still a lot of work to do

so headache argh Dx

i know these few days i like very fed up like that.

so fed up marhsx.

fed up for being so useless when i tried so hard and couldnt get anything done.

is it that hardd.

im scared i wont make it.

i wont know what to do if i cant.

but if i cant even make it to this..

what else can i expect myself.

i tried my best.

the science module thing was like..

haiyos.

did i even go into the wrong class. hmm.

i shouldnt have came in. hmmm.

and then my crime prevention badge is un done.

need to be done by fridae and i did like nothing yet.

and a lot of homeworks waiting for my foolscap to be brought home tomorrow.

i want to sleep!!

even during lessons i wanted to. gosh!

but i cantt. as of yet.

im far too slack already i guess..

sighs.

i forgot the nonsense i wanted to say.

shall say once i remember them.

hmm.

wasthatfate,orunluckyforyou?whatwereyouthinking?x/3

2007-07-08T17:30:00.000+08:00

im sad.

boohoo.

i was just about to say i was happy because i could find the first 6 episodes at last but..

the whole com hanged and it seemed unhappy to buffer Dx

rahhs.!

i just realised how barneys i love you song was adapted from this old man.

im slow i know. but this was the first time i heard it when my cousin came to my house and did some music stuffs with this old man.

and yes.

never buy the wrong brand of ferrero rocher.

it tastes weird.

it was made of PEANUTS.

so it tasted weird.

i forgot i shouldnt throw away the paper when i ate it so that can use to make the rose like the advertisement one for senior farewell.

and i dont know how to do crime prevention thing

ohh. just let me fail it. i have absolutely no idea how to even start it.

my show episode arhh. still lagging...

T_T

'_'

2007-07-08T12:27:00.000+08:00

im starting to love the tv for the nicey shows its currently showing which i have been wanting to watch for ages but couldnt find the show anywhere in internet nor rent cd shops.

however i missed out 6 episodes and thats the sad thing Dx

if only i found out earlier it was showing.

ive been wanting to watch for the past dunno how many months.

and the other nicey show i watched and realised it was nice.

ah ha.

tv ahh!

i dint realise that there were actually these shows out on tv xD

^^

however i cant watch harry potter and the globat of fire showing today!

its not on my tv Dx

i wonder if my cousin's tv have anott....

i want to watch..............

Dx!

2007-07-05T15:13:00.000+08:00

22 MORE DAYS TO A.GUIDES CAMPFIRE xDD

i know no one cares.

since the school is BIASED against girl guides.

and i shall not carry on explaining before i get too angry and spoil my mood before going to play.

but dont you think it's unfair?

its like..

and when people insult us. and stuffs.

havent you spared a thought about how we will feel?

if we said that to you all would you be happy?

NO.

Dx

never mind.

i have to gulp this down no matter what.

because im in no position to argue and whatsoever.

just so angry and fed up about it.

not only me though.

but we have to gulp it down too.

samantha was angry too.

samantha seems the angry-iest among us.

she's almost like angry until like an active volcano that will erupt any moment and will cause great harms like how mount merapi did to jakarta.

she did spill a bit of those "lava" out thoughs.

but me and cynthia covered some before she will spill more out.

i know we are angry.

but like they say.

we can do nothing.

though i seriously want to protest.

and north division day prize was given out today.

think no one cared.

but those few prizes were so important to us.

though it seemed little too.

but we won the most prizes.

competing with hard hard schools.

and yes no one cheered as loud.

but it made us all smile so happily.

all so happy about this.

and im sure the campfire is gonna make us smile more too.

if they dont want to come i dont want to care anymore.

they just look down on us.

but im sure we can show them how to regret if they arent coming.

souvenir prize not really done yet.

yesterday was finding the letters.

hard sia..

even chuyun maam came to help.

she's fast at finding letters.

and we used our creativity to do something to the letters.

hahax.

my cross stitch havent buy yet.

dunno where to buy worhs.

sians.

dance choreography thing how ne?

that one also not much yet.

hmms.

campfire coming larh.!

less than 1 month and there are mountains of stuffs to do.

i miss my handphone terribly.

lucky my mum didnt terminate my line though.

since she has to pay a lot.

so she got her old phone for me to use.

mind you, it is OLD.

and it loads super slow.

and yet again there isnt message counter.

but its quite fun.

hahax.

sms got signature one lols.

hopefully not gonna lose this.

if i do.

im gonna die.

>.<

2007-07-01T14:02:00.000+08:00

i.lost.my.phone.AGAIN.

and.im.not.gonna.have.another.one.for.the.next.century.

and.so.dont.call.me.or.sms.me.

dont.ask.me.why.i.lost.it.either.because.i.also.cant.solve.the.mystery.of.how.it.was.lost.

all.i.can.say.is.that.history.repeated.itself.that.the.person.who.picked.up.doesnt.want.to.return.

and.so.im.not.gonna.post.for.a.long.time.as.this.is.gonna.be.the.grieving.period.of.the.lost.phone.

thank.you.

2007-06-30T10:23:00.000+08:00

OKs.

i couldnt post and now im finally posting.

who cares anyway.

^^

had science and chinese for yesterday nia due to speech day lahx.

die man, im gonna get terrible results for my chinese compo for sure.

oh yeas.

and then i have to say that cassandra is SUPER LAG.

SUPER.

and then she was WEIRD.

minying called her.

if could go her hse do srp.

she was like walk here, -point at minying(or anything else) then "HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAHAHA. why?"

ok yahs.

we all laughed like.

hahx.

then cassandra forged her mum's signature and finally went to eat kfc.

i noe 2 points to tackle on cassandra.

1 point is AHEMAHEMAHEM.

2nd point is tickle!

yays!

ok yarhs.

then then we took bus 86 off to my home.

and then played a bit and had to go off again for speech day duty.

returned books and bought milk tea on the way to the bus stop.

cassandra keep saying hers was too sweet.

zzz.

somethings wrong with cassandra these few days.

she went all of a sudden too lag and she went all of a sudden a bit too high and siao.

that was my conclusion from observing these few days.

and my hypothesis is that she ate too much sweet stuffs like her favourite marshmallows this june holidays.

so she got too high.

oh yeash.

i thought people would be there when i reached since it was 3 but apparently i couldnt see anyone outside the guides den.

then finally realised they were all inside the guides den lahx.

then polish my trefoil!

polishing is NICE.

woohoos.

so i helped qian ci polish too.

a bit of a problem since the tissue was like spoilt and black-ed at that time.

hees.

and then we went to make the drinks at the hme ec room.

the ices were cool.

they were in plastic bags and had the shape of that.

bt the problem was tht they were stucked to the plastic bags and we all had like frozen hands trying to remove the plastic bags.

then we brought stools from the home ec rooms and the drinks we made from the home ec rooms to our "secret hiding place"

apparently it was not a secret anymore at the end.

ok then we made the drinks and then we wanted to give to the guests and then they said they were the ones without the flower or the badge thing.

or something like that.

the drinks looked like pudding in the cup xD

and we were to give them only when they sit down.

so we had to wait for them to sit down before serving so the drinks went a bit cooled down and wasnt that sweet anymore since we put ice.

so and then they sat down and we gave them and stuffs.

and they watched the ncc's performance which we were watching too since we were too bored.

then they went off so we dint give finish the drinks.

so mrs kumar said alamak a lot of times and joyce laughed at that.

so mrs kumar said that they were gone, so we give to the teachers barhs.

and we could drink.

lols.

the wine glasses were like SO FAKE.

it was like plastic lidat and grace and syafiqah broke one each.

xD

and the bottom of the wine glass kept dropping.

stupid wine glass lah.

then the teachers all walked into our "secret hiding place" and stayed there and talk.

-.-

so it wasnt a secret anymore.

and some teachers had second serving.

and maybe they self-serviced.

since we werent around as we dint dare to walk to a place full of teachers.

so we like "left them alone at our secret place"

and then we took the drinks ourself and drank lahx.

grace was funny too.

she gave her chinese teacher drink that time was funny ^^

and then we went back to the home ec rooms and talked and slacked.

and then we sat and played truth or dare with the others.

dares were evil.

due to samantha and haiys.

baddies! Dx

i would never want dares again.

oh yeahs.

and then they told ghost stories so me and grace went one side.

xD

and then we were to go for refreshment duties again.

same thing like last year though.

and then i partner with bi xia.

she keep disappearing lols.

and she keep saying that the people were "feeding pigs" to reduce the temptation. xD

and cheng yee keep reminding me of macdonalds to increase my temptation. Dx

but seriously minying also said i could go work at macdonalds.

due to the tray that looked alike.

and we cleared up food.

and we ATE!

oh, that part everyone was happy.

then we took the things down and stuffs.

double sided tapes are hard.

and we were all quite unhappy about a certain thing that happened and we continued and linked to other stuffs as well.

me and samantha and a bit of christine.

and then we went off for debrief and we did cheers!

whee-pees.

people said we were noisy.

MAN.

how could peoples be so evil to criticise girl guides who did so much that no one knew since the teachers dint thank us huh?!

teachers are bias too Dx

yays. i wrote a lot.

xD

很怕的是有一天会发现每个人都很恨我。
很怕的是有一天会发现我没有朋友。
很怕的是有一天不再有人想和我说话。
是我的错，我不是一个好朋友，也不是一个敢勇敢地去和人做朋友的人。
总觉得我害怕的已经到来了。
那我什么都就不是失去了吗？
我是一个多么微不足道的人。
无论是在班上在家里或是在cca上我都是很微不足道的。
所以才会不敢和人做朋友。
但是又因为这样所以没有朋友也没有人想和我做朋友。
我是一个很烂的朋友。
所以说起来我也不值得有朋友。

man.i really seriously feel like dying.

2007-06-27T20:24:00.000+08:00

had chinese for the first lesson and wrote compo.

mine was soooo plain.

no climax, no conflict.

die le lah for this compo T_T

others all write same topic as me o.o

i thought since no one will write this so i wrote.

oh man, everyone thought the same way!

haax.

oh yeas.

history was funni.

and we had timeout to eat.

yayys.

science was all in library.

we were slacking.

since we hav the reference and intending to do on saturday.

together with the toot-y srp.

sucky T_T

eng was nice! coz thr was no ms yeoh n i could finish my compo coz mrs lawrence allowed. ^^

she rox ^^

oh yeas. and efl.

the performings arts and the piano pieces was SO COOOOL OMG.

they were all so PROOOOO.

and then we had lunchtime!!~

took 30 pictures of cassandra and zhixin de scanderrrlousss piiccctuuureee.
howiwishedicouldtookasmanypicturesasthatbuticouldnt
including huiling drinking watermelon juice and charlene eating though.

^^

and then yeps.

cca.

was funny.

haax.

yays.thn went hme with samantha.

if ice could "numb" us temporary..
i would have surrounded my brain and my heart with ice.
with addition of salt to decrease the temperature to increase the effect and lifespan of the ice.
so that everything would turn out so much better.

2007-06-26T21:32:00.000+08:00

school reopen.

studiess.

rahx.

first home econ lesson of the year today. =)

haax, ours was like, failed.

however the failed attempt, when mdm waheeda came, she saed it was nice.

and that shocked everyone off :D

and then our cookies were partially chao-ta.

and our stickmen de head was like scraped off.

oh, and we had egg yolk.

since it was a failed attempt by me to get the egg yolk only.

minying's was super nice.

so we had nice egg to eat obviously. =)

and english and geog lessons are boring Dx

english i was like writing stuffs on my notebook, since she keep talking about her experience and stuff.

geog, teacher talked half an hour before starting on the topic.

sianx.

loveorhate.
howtodifferentiate.

失去的方向；该如何找回?
如果找不回；有应该怎么在这个长长的道路上继续走下去?
没有方向，又怎么知道要往哪里走？
但是我永远都不可能再找的方向的。
那么我应该怎么办？

2007-06-24T22:33:00.000+08:00

according to my parents my left eye is lazy.

poor right eye, it must have worked hard for a very long time.

Dx

and now there is this problem i have to cover my right eye to look things which seems hard.

how sad.

ok, im just laming.

heh. but it's seriously true la ^^

2007-06-24T17:41:00.000+08:00

school is reopening.

and im just sooo unhappy that it is.

time passed so quickly Dx

holidays were fun though.

guides meetings and stuffs were fun.

making jelly was fun.

crapping with family was fun.

watching tv together and going out together with them was fun.

studying was fun.

(at least some part of it helps to kill boredom.)

taking the bus was fun.

buying milk tea was fun.

cross stitching was fun.

school just isnt.

ok.

maybe we can do all these things during school days too.

but school is just not the same.

the time management and stuffs are different.

the people you will see are different.

the way you feel might also be a great difference.

im not great.

i should not have felt this way.

im not good enough to differentiate such stuffs.

but some things can just be seen.

and felt.

feel your presence among others.

see their attitudes.

even if it is just acting.

i might also find it nice.

thats why i say im not great.

good or bad, im not sure.

through tiny small things, maybe i can find something different.

maybe people are talking behind my backs.

maybe people don't like me.

i think i can feel it too sometimes.

struggle through such stuffs aint easy.

sometimes you might just feel it's because no one understands what youre thinking.

thats why their attitude are different.

but even if you try to tell them the reasons.

no one will hear.

but letting it pass on doesnt feel good.

it makes the whole thing worse at times.

but what have you gotta do?

no one trusts what you said.

everyone.they dont.

thats why i say explanations never work anymore.

reasons are useless already.

it's been so many things that ive gave up on reasonings.

arguing, maybe.

no one will ever know what the person in front of them is thinking.

sometimes i feel scared.

people in front of me might just hate me to the core and wishes to kill me or something.

but that can also be hidden deep inside their minds and not shown.

i can remember how many people are just angry with me and just say it out.

thats why im always scared of offending people.

maybe i already offended thousands of people.

i tried to be a good friend.

sometimes.

its hard too.

2007-06-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

yesterday was GGS CARNIVAL!

reached somerset mrt station at 12.40 or something.

met with huiling and jiamin and qianci.

waited for jerrica they all + syafiqah.

syafiqah came, but we waited and couldnt see jerrica they all.

yingchyi came so we decided to go with her instead.

reached at arnd 1 or something. *scape field.

crappy, we were told tht we could only start setting up at 2.

since they havent eat yet so we went to eat at BK. the shortform they called. =)

the onion rings cheat my money D:

$2.60 for such a small packet D:

while qianci had sooo much french fries.

BIASED.

hmfphs.

then we walked back to the field.

huiling saw $5 coupon on the floor.

FOC!

haax!

syafiqah took ^^

we took one of the dollar from inside to dedicate songs to a.guides ^^

sweet escape.

sec 2 campfire dance song!

ah ha ^^

but i dint think much people heard the dedication, so nevermind.

and then we went to sell the BOOKMARKS.

super cute.

jingqiu is GOOODDDDDDDDD.

so nice ^^

by the time our shift ended we already sold the bookmarks until there was no more for restock.

so cool right, we were only the first shift, kingfisher =)

so we decided to go around and shop with our coupons.

i was tired. almost fainted. =

did i really look pale haax.

then was forced to sit down and was forced to eat cake.

or not they dint allow me to go home -.-

ah ha.

then went shopping around with ziying and baoyi after that.

nothing nice to buy leh D:

so end up i only spent money on our bookmarks lah xD

since the rest of the stalls, mostly were food.

and i dint wanna eat any so yah.

so i gave the rest of the coupons to the others ^^

then realised had 2 more in my bag when i reached home.

then chiong homework.

haax.

2007-06-19T20:45:00.000+08:00

how pathetic, i have to use back this old account.

that account keep lagging.

and the prob is i signed in everything in that account

and i forgot the password D:

today.

SANA course

met samantha at 8.15 and went to compasspoint to find the others.

reached at slightly more than 8.45, so dint reach 15 minutes earlier but lucky the whole thing haven't started.

the course was quite funny, but quite boring..almost fell asleep, but didn't. haax.

quite scary too though.

breaks were nice, a.guides came together.

the lunch break was funny, the guy seriously thought we were st nicks guides.

guess how much we could have laughed! haax!!

and christine told lame jokes, qijin added some in too -.-

we went to have lunch at KFC, 7 of us, the rest, im not so sure haax.

then the test.

some questions don't know how to do, but i'm sure i passed barhs.

loo peng got full marks.

how pro!!!!

she is the 9th among thousands of people!

cool mans.

this shows the power of anderson clover guides!

then the role play thing.

stuuuuppid.

that guy change the whole thing until it was climax-less.

haax, i didn't act much. i was the person calling the police

i think audience didn't notice my existence as well since i didn't walk in front.

haax.

oh yah, i forgot to say i saw hazlyn, did i spell her name wrong?

oh, i also forgot to say how biased they are.

npcc had free lunch while we didn't.

however they had to fill up a survey or something while we didn't.

the people in SANA said, this is because they have free lunch and we don't, haax!

oh, and we went home, with assigned task of finding 10 people to do.

anyone interested?

2007-06-18T15:14:00.000+08:00

homeworks!

i still have lit poem and movie assignment!

ohmygosh O.O

i hate these 2 =

i missed out st nicks campfire.

it seemed fun ehs. D:

super bored!

i look weird in that specs!

ohmygosh.

and my sis had a nice cross stitch!

ohmygosh i wannntttttttt

D:

and tomorrow is the anti drug abuse thingy!

haax.

anti drug abuse.

and following that is maths tuitioon.

and following that is rural hikeeeee. not forgetting the day that my specs are gonna be readyy!

and following that is a free day =)

and following that is ggs carnivalll!

and following that is a sunday cum the day we all have to prepare for school!

and the folllowing day is schooolll reopppennnn!

somehow looking forward to it, too bored at home.

but somehow not looking forward to it, since im still in the holidae mood.

and so not looking forward to it, since ive not done my homeworks.

x.x

so hard to do de homeworks.. D:

and my homeworks are all piled one side waiting to be classified and tidied up.

but ive not done that!

haax!

things get further
drifting apart.
fading away.
everything is.
everythings going down.
terribly.
wrongly.

2007-06-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

actually it wasn't really that i heard nothing.

perhaps i just didn't feel like replying.

perhaps i had nothing to reply.

perhaps it was just because it had already became my habit long ago to never reply.

because you will never know when you'ld reply wrongly.

yeahs.

and sometimes i just felt all the same way.

now i know why so many of us including me likes simplicity.

the world is too complicating.

sometimes we need a rest too.

something to get out of the complication.

i might just do anything to get it.

no wonder when i was young i liked complicating stuffs so much.

there wasn't really much in the past.

yet now i began to stop liking them and hate them instead.

it's a headache.

the world is complicating.

you'll never know how people around you feels.

they might hate you yet befriend you for all you know.

but perhaps sometimes.

things can be seen from some loose holes.

you'ld then realise how to differentiate between good or bad friends.

i've given up on hating.

or anger.

it's too much work.

perhaps trying to categorise people seems nicer.

and i'm sure i had faults here too.

sooner or later.

i began to realise.

crying don't make you feel better.

it doesn't help in any circumstances.

yet i find myself unable to stop.

maybe because i held too many things to myself i had to let them out to by crying.

since no one would hear anyway.

sort of tiring.

that's what life is.

can i give up on this then?

2007-06-14T21:26:00.000+08:00

worms arent insects.

~~shit~~!

we're gonna die.

hard.

2007-06-13T21:00:00.000+08:00

yays!

i finished my artist badge.

this is the most happiest thing.

xD

for people as unartistic as me i could actually draw finish 4 drawings!

within 2 days!

whoohooo.

but i doubt that i would pass it...

never mindd...

wish me good luck :D

2007-06-11T21:14:00.000+08:00

todae had girl guides meeting lahs.

we went and twist and turn the metal wire stuffs.

though i was wasting the wires lidat.

anyway.

todae was boring.

no one talked to me.

cos my patrol only jiahui mam.huiling.qianci.me.

syafiqah and cheryl dint come so it was super boring.

sighx.

then after that got this hand in testwork stuffs.

hees i havent do artist.

have to do soon cos deadline's coming up!

ziying's one is SUPER BEAUTIFUL.

it's like..OMGGGG!!!!

so pro xD

and zhiyan mam said about the stuffs for campfire prep.

so now we have to think for best item, and should be can start lerh.

think think think. i still cant think of any.

and then went to compasspoint with cynthia and samantha.

went to food court to eat because i wanted to and they came along xD

saw huishan de si bian tai. hahahas. xD

then after that me and samantha wanted to scare cynthia

we "disappeared" and hid

so i went to check my handphone and realised i couldnt find my tortoise's water bottle.

and then i saw 3 sms-es and 3 phone calls.

wows.

so i saw the phone calls : made by christine,grace,ziyun.

and then i went to look at the sms.

i was laughing like hell when i read them lols.

and samantha was trying to tell me to quiet cause we wanted to scare cynthia.

the 3 sms-es were the same.

they read :

your tortoise thirsty a not?

then i was like rofl-ing.

not really rolling on the floor.

maybe around the walls.

lolx.

and so it's currently with ziyun and i shall take back on st nicks campfire.

i forgot totally about st nicks campfire.

hahas.

sians.

so much more things for me to do.

homework gone case le xD

SIGH.

2007-06-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

my post is gone D:

anyways

so i rewrite D:

anyway.

my leg aches.

from standing so long for BP campfire.

anyway we had dance choreo thingy today too.

sec 2s :D

we went to christine's house

met at j8.

i went wif samantha.

unhappy on the way as i wanted to buy bubble tea bfore going.

n was scared tht thr aint enuf time.

but realised we were TOO early when we arrived.

n they all were late.

n christine's house is nicey!

got "ZHONG XI HE PING" de things.

pardon me for my lousy han yu pin yin.

anyway.

her house had a bird.

nicknamed : BIRD.

funny nickname :D

bt it was seriously its name :D

so cute tht bird.

though some of us were scared of it.

n it was scared of my comb.

n it liked qijin's rubber band.

ahhas.

n we spent time watching MTVs trying to get dance moves.

n we only got 1 dance move :D

they sae we always get only 1 dance move per meeting hahas.

then we changed.

to full guides u

n went off at exactly 5 oclock.

i remembered someone..shld be ziyun..><

saed tht the neighbour's house got people.

n i heard tht she said "got gorilla"

ok im weird.

nvm.

n we went to have dinner.

saw aswini and haritha and haiys.

they went for scrabble comp, though lost.

n me,ziyun and grace went to yoshinoya to eat.

since qijin backed out in the end to go to long johns wif the majority.

and then we saw loopeng who came to eat too and waited for her.

n we met wif the other a.guides to go.

chuyun mam told me that even without consent form also must go BP campfire since its compulsory.

so i went.

n im the only one who dint sign up.

-.-

n then we went to BP campfireee.

oriole pples bully kingfisher pples.

since i was the odd one out.

among the 4 of us.

not fair.

jiahui is supposingly in kingfisher now also ok D:

n thn we somehow changed place i dno why..

n oh ya.

ziyun keeps learning from just follow law.

-.-

n the campfire was somehow boring..opps.

n they were intending to use toothpicks learning from mr bean :D

n we had to stand again for the whole campfire.

luckily we won best supportive, this time, or not i might start to wonder if im gonna swear again like last time..oooppppsssss.

ying chyi they all super funni :D

anyway.

its like.

though i only went to pathetically only 3 campfires for 2 of my years in guides.

wonder why.

but its like we learnt a lot from these campfires..

whether good or bad.

advices from seniors..

to improve on our campfires, or ways to make a GOOD campfire.

like control the audience and not let them control us..(like hw we tried controlling them n somehow sometimes it worked..)

and hw to involve all the audiences in the games..

and some must-have songs and cheers..

to me in the past..

campfires were like..juz cheers and songs and performances and thats it go home~!

but no.

it takes good technics and stuffs to make a perfectly godly campfire.

its hard.

so DUN ever think a.guides are slacky.

we are so not slacky tht ziyun advised me,from advices from seniors and teachers, not to take triple sci and 2 humans coz it would be too hard for us, coz of testworks,badges,campfires,etc.etc.etc.etc.

so if u think we are slacky..

THINK again.

TWIST ur minds.

ok.

most pple will obviously say their ccas are the best and other ccas are lousier.

but every ccas have their own speciality..

so there isnt gd or bad rite..

ok so never mind..

i will change my minds abt other ccas too.i hope some of us will too. x.x

a few months or years later ask me and see if i changed.

im trying to already.

but other pple saying bad about our ccas..

seriously hope they change too.

though i wonder if they might ever will X.X

a lot ccas dun like girl guides.

or sometimes even teachers

its unfair.

we have more good points than bad points.

i believe those teachers de ccas are also gd to them n they wont wan pple saying bad abt their ccas.

we dint.

so why hate us?

sighs.

i hope im changing my bad points too.

i know im pathetically a bad person a bad friend a bad child juz everything bad.

i will try to change.

in fact im starting to have different views about people i hated in the past already.

i know my mind still always contradicts with my actions.

but mind u.

that doesnt mean im kind to u = i hate u.

my mind contradicts with my actions not on the way i talk to people.

but if anyone hates me i can do nth.

i noe im too bad a person i dun expect anyone to think im gd.

if i can even hate myself too, wad can u expect..

so neverminds.

wells.

2007-06-07T22:07:00.000+08:00

com's working working!!! xD xD xD!!

it wasnt yesterdae ^^

ok.finally understood hw to get the colours of this. :D

shall make it colourful ^^

today is a super duper unlucky day.

1.~~my turtle and its water bottle dropped out~~*considered lucky cause its lost & found.*

2.have to go and 9 oclock for the electric circuits and insects and stuffs.

3.almost fell down due to the staircases.

4.shoe spoilt. o.o

5.walked for hours in search for the things needed.

6.and we spent a lot of money and in the end the electric circuit was out of use.

7.we were all screaming cause of the insects. they were super scary.

8.zhixin hung up on my call and didnt come although i threatened to throw the insects in her house )x *BAD ZHIXIN.YOU DIDNT DO ANYTHING FOR THE SRP.I COMMAND YOU TO DO FOR NEXT THURSDAE(well, u missed the lovely pizzas though)*

9.i troubled cassandra's family a lot.

10.last to go off from cassandra's house.and it was so totally dark then n i got home late.

rahs.

anyway.

today was for srp.

it took 11 hours of my time ok.

patheticcc.

anyways.

SUPER DUPER THANKEWWW TO CASSANDRA (AND HER MAMA AND GRANDMA):D :D :D

thankew to cassandra :

for your soap basket.
for your audition.

:D

thankew to cassandra's mama :

for the lovely pizza lunch and dinner.
for the ride home.

:D

thankew to cassandra's grandma :

for the puppet.
for being super nice.

:D

anyway, i seriously caused a lot of trouble lahs.

so very thankew to them.

:D

and i lost my scissors again for this holiday.

super not funny.

and the insects were super scary.

they crawled out of our experiment box.

and we are doing crickets the next week.

IMAGINE OMG.

and its like..

we used chopsticks to pick them up.

O.O

anyway.

the pizza was super nice.

though it caused me my old tooth problem the toothache :D

2007-06-05T15:23:00.000+08:00

im moodless to do homeworks.

they are all so hard to do.

how could people be like almost completing all their homeworks?

especially chinese?

i dunno how to do.

sob sob.

i wanna watch digimon tamers again :D

i know im childish. ^^

i miss the digimon tamers days. ^^

digimon rawks =p

digimon rawks ~~like~~ MOOREEEE than fruits basket =p

im getting more and more childish! ahhahaha.

xD ahhhahahas im super childish ^^

=X

2007-06-04T14:03:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the band concert.

minying looks super cute ahh haaas.

her hair still bounces all the same.

xD

ok im nt les.

but she just looks cute xD

uhs.

and michelle made me buy one bottle of apple tea with her just because 2 bottles make it $2.

uhs.

n then we went to the concert!

and then i saw a lot of *ahem ahem* stuffs.

ok. im nt to say out or someone's killing me.

but cassandra noes too~ xD

and then we realised we were sitting behind geraldine's family xD

and mrs allison lim sang.

her voice is niceeey.

n then the break

a lot pple got flowers x.x

we dint buy for minying oops =X

we were joking that we dint see vivegan giving minying and cassandra flowers xD

n then got the west winds play

was loud.

and michelle saed tht the people behind saed tht we were too noisy n asked us to stop playing x.x

and then it was like overshot time to 8+

and their seniors kip saeing encore.

but then the audience seemed quite silent for tht.

ah has.

n thn cass,michelle n i too fotos of our shadows

and cass even wannted to take fotos of the shadow of the tree.

thn we went to eat.

cass ate the exp exp pepper lunch thing while me n michelle ate chicken rice.

n michelle fell on the ground when i was trying to make her eat o.0

n thn we went cass hse take soap basket.

sry michelle =x

we 2 were scared off to walk alone in the dark dark places.

n we called zhixin coz we were scared..

there was absolutely like no one at the bus-stand.

cass shld change hse. her hse thr seemed so eerie.

n thn we finally got on the bus.

whew.

bt the bus went super slow.

haiyos.

n michelle was like kip smsing n my water bottle keychain kip shining.

its batt will run out sooner or later if i stay wif michelle n she sms-es.

thn went home.

2007-06-04T13:37:00.000+08:00

i feel evil.

but i doubt i can do much except for this.

Dx

this is the oonllyy way out!

i know things changed.

but..

D: